Make me wonder but no sad feeling :) Computer Programing 2

oh gosh.

Lazy to blog now.

oh yea, holiday

yea, i'm holiday-ing now.

I sempat met my old friends before they leaving for university.

Congratulations.

Now, i'm at TM doing nothing, keep thinking of DSLR which is kinda of impossible for me to get one, my family isn't rich!

Sob, sob, i want a DSLR, eos 550D or D5000! someone please give me as whatever gift, XD.

recently, kinda of lazy to update my blog.


just feel like staying home doing nothing. XD.

time to update about the half of the summer semester

where am i now?

C++ lab.

whoa.

Btw, i'm going to update about my current activities.

I went to Genting and Malacca last weekend. 

Had fun

Awesome. Thanks friends.

However, i still having problem. Maybe that's my own problem. Maybe i think too much.

Besides, i i cooked last night. Thanks for becoming the white mouses.

Oh YEAH, we will have a potluck tomorrow's night. Attendees, girls, about 15 of us.

Recursion, pointer, class, method, etc ->PROGRAMMING

50% of the summer gone

I had had my C++ test 1 today, the only test before final examination. Screwed it or not, it doesn't matter anyway.

After finished my test, i came back to akasia while others went to sunway. I had to replace my maybank visa debit card as it couldn't be used anymore. I waited in maybank for 2 hours. while waiting, i online. hehe.

Before coming back, we went to ossp to ask about jpa medical check up, whoa, it's lengthy and "tebal". sweat==''. injection again!

After maybank, i slept till 7 p.m. my dad and mum kept calling me asking me about whether to buy this and that or not. luggage winter wear, etc. as usual, i said, sui bian la. that's no point of calling me. XD. in the end, they will decide to buy it or not. haha. well, i guess they bought the 20-inch polo luggage and one winter wear today. tomorrow they will call again for other stuffs.

the international driving license can be applied for 1 year only. haiz. super sob.

what else? brickfield wesak day-not going. sorry!

today  lowyat
29/30  May       Relay for Life 

3/4     June     Genting
5        June     Malacca
6        June     Kajang
10/11 June     Muar or Back to Kelantan

the list goes on...
hopefully.

went to nowhere in may! bcs my heart wasn't opened yet!

Random financial update

I haven't prepared!
Pizza Hut + Noodle Station
Zero Cent Left!
Owed Bev RM4.30.

ATM card rosak.
Couldn't withdraw money.

me pokai but life is going on

last week, really pokai.
now also.
brought a luggage cost me rm220, my mum said expensive.

she banked in rm300 for 2 luggage, one smallest, one largest. but i just brought one 28-inch luggage.

now, pokai. before rm300 was banked in, i got rm50. now, got rm40. bcs spending on food and everything when went to subang.

RM40 or less to be spent in one week. Siew La, you can do it!

this coming 29/30 may, bukit jalil, relay for life, hopefully don't have to spend a single cent, but i guess i will bcs i like to donate, sweat==''

before that, i got c++ test (20%) on this coming thursday, gg liao.

then on 3/4 june, going to genting, rm40 for hotel, then transportation, and everything, i don't have money, how? haven't told my parents, haiz, sure die one.
i need at least rm200 for this trip.

then one more week or on the same week, wanna go to malacca, but i pokai liao, have to ask money again?

omg.

really pokai, and really dunno what to do. work part-time i afraid i can't take it la. so, didn't!

haiz.

dad and mum, sorry, i really pokai. use lots before.

having fun? oh really. i pokai liao.

can i live with rm60 for 2 weeks? we wait and see.

some random update

1myselfpsl is totally different from myselfpsl
the previous blog
y? this blog, i'm always emo, emo and emo
yet, today update is also emo

yea, i'm going to purdue to further my studies but why am i still worry about maryland? i'm kiasu!
that's the answer. everyone gotten it just me is pending, so i'm worry. haha, stupid me actually.

c++ 2, so far so bad. i didn't get a single thing that i learned from lecture. haiz. assignment 1 given but i dunno how to do. die me!

hasn't gotten reply from physics 2's lecturer, only he knew the reason why i failed to score expected result for my final. i really want to know. pls tell me. tell me i'm bad in physics, i can accept it. just tell me the truth, thanks.

my friendship killing me. haiz

that's all. just to express. nothing much than that~

doubt about my capabilities

omg
such a bad mood
estimated i score terribly for physics 2 final
made me doubt about my capabilities to continue majoring in electrical engineering or any other engineerings.

it's not easy to forget if i had expected it to be a good grade

i never expected it to kill my cgpa.

haiz. i am totally speechless. i really really no ideas at all why my final was screwed.

it's beyond my worst expectation!.
god if you were existed, send me the clue. i seriously want to know it, no matter what, i can accept it.

results

all the results are beyond my expectation except for C++.

i never expected to score well for technical writing, literature and ctes.

i expected to score well in physics but i scored bad, worse than my worse expectation for my physics 2. anyone can tell me the reasons why i scored bad for my physics 2?

i really really disappointed.

it's like out of my world. i never score that bad for the subject i expected to score well. i didn't even had the feeling that i would score bad after final. it's really strange. super strange. i really dunno. according to my lecturer, i did bad for my final. but y, i couldn't feel it. with my grade i gotten, if just final affected it, i really have to think how bad i am in physics, it's super bad bcs i score almost full mark for the others 60%. 40% for the final, let said i lost 3 marks the max for the 60%. B+ is 87 to 90, let's said i score 89, the highest for B+, i should have lost 8% out of 40%, that's meant i lost 20 out of 100, the minimum for the final. That's means 80/100, it's really incredibly low. it's really worse than my worst expectation. or might be lower than 80!

What?

i really can't accept the reality, do i have the chance to take a look at my final paper?

i really upset.

STUPID

it's me, not others, yea, stupid

am i rush? yea
am i stupid? yea
am i crazy? yea
am i bored? yea

haiz.

housing hasn't settled.

C++ 2

I have been assigned to take psychology this semester. However, i requested to take C++ 2 and my appeal was succeed.

Computer programming 2 is the exact name for the course. I have missed 2 lectures but i asked my friends, they haven't started any lessons yet. Thus, i assume it should be a problem for me to catchup.

However, i attended 2 day lectures of psychology and found out that it was not my cup of tea. It is bored like hell. Although summer semester is a relaxing semester, but i think i should take something that is beneficial to my major.

Hopefully, my decision won't lead me to a miserable life.

sometime i am curious am i that bad?

i'm always alone and lonely.

yea, i have friends but never had a serious conversation before.

i have friends but they don't trust me, and so do i.

i have friends but neither of them really understand what i feel and so do i.

i have friends but never they honestly tell me what i have done and so do i.

fair enough?

i'm bad, yea, i admit.

i really feel bad for myself.

if possible, i want to tell you guys who called themselves my friends that i can't feel the friendship but i can't.

maybe you might say i'm pessimistic, ignorant or whatsoever. yea, i am.

who am i actually? how i behave actually? i really curious sometime.

being rush also wrong
being slow also wrong

care also wrong
don't care also wrong

now
i really dunno how to behave like a normal human being who has friends to talk and trust her and to trust her.

i just want to be normal

although i have high expectations, it doesn't mean i can't be normal.

haiz.

i really upset.

People have plan that will work out but i have plan that won't work at all.

This will be my super-bored summer semester.

i want to go for vacations but i don't have enough friends and don't have friends to follow me to go for vacations.

places that i want to go
1) Lowyat
2) Genting
3) Langkawi
4) Sunway Lagoon
5) Malacca
6) Penang

i also want to taste "a little" liquor before flying to USA. not implied that i never drink liquor. just want to taste it again with different people and atmosphere.

i want to watch movies. movies and movies in cinema.

although it's summer semester, i don't want to screw the subject that i will take.

i want to have fun but i want to score it.

my plan will only work on my side which is score it bcs i have plenty of time to study bcs my other plans won't work at all.

The journey back to kelantan was cancelled due to...

My tears were dropping down non-stop after knowing that jpa going to send me off to ohio state university. Thus, i cancelled my taxi to kl sentral and didn't manage to take the board on the train yesterday night.

Where am i now?
Subang Airport.

I'm not rich just i missed my bed so bed.


I really want to go back due to a lot of bad things happened around me recently.

I really want to take a rest.

I'm sorry, mum and dad. i know rm200 isn't easy to earn.

I just too lazy to blog about it. Thanks everyone in helping me sorting out my problem. Just pray hard for the most correct path for my future.

Overall, I have a awesome Spring Semester, but ...

Spring 2010, today marks the end of IT. I have just finished my final examination.
Despite the sudden breakthrough news that has made me depressed and wonder about my personality, spring semester was really awesome.

Let's start with the good things first.

Literature with Mr.Kamal
As you all knew me, myselfpsl, never like languages. However, she enjoyed literature class. I have learned a lot about American's writing. The more i learn about literature, the more i love language. Thanks

Physics 2 with Mr. Nizam
Simple lecture yet complicated stuff. Hopefully, i can score well for this subject although it's not transferable.

C++ with Ms.Saidatul
I love this subject very much. I enjoy every single thing i learned. If possible, i really want to major in it.

Technical Writing with Ms.Kiranjeet
Just normal esl course. Didn't aim high for this. Thanks to my teammates! You guys have surely upgraded my grade.

and Finally CTES with Mr.Redha
Legal issues, didn't aim for it too.. Still, i was thinking of opt it but given up due to the high carrier mark, 52/60. The highest for actp is 53. If i did well for the final, the highest i could get is B+. just hope for that.

Enough with academic stuffs. Let's move on to my life.

YEa, it's depressing.

I really depressed.

It's undeniable i'm bad but i'm not that bad.

I might be selfish but my selfishness is not that high.

Really don't want to talk about it.

Friends, if you really cared, just let's me be what i want to be.

I really upset to hear that i'm irritating and annoying and selfish and unethical.

Full stop.

Yea, going back to tm real soon.

I'm emo again!

Frankly speaking, my emoness can be stopped.
Final is approaching. What i can say for my progress is 0% studied.

Took a look at my test 2 paper, surprisingly, i didn't screw it but i screwed my quiz 4 which me i lost 1.7 mark for final grade.

i have to score above 90 in the final examination which is kinda of impossible for me to score A!
I need want a A not A+ like others.

moody-it isn't my fault. i'm sorry.

yea, i am emo these few days.
frankly speaking, i also dunno the specific reasons.
yea, i admit i feel sad before i didn't do well for my c++ test 2. i realized i wrote the program wrongly. that's my stupid mistake.
yea, i admit i feel tension that final is approaching.
yea, i admit i feel "unhappy" with my c++ game.
but all those things are normal things. should not have affected my mood.

10 more days, i will go back to TM. but, i am not that happy.

i have 2 more presentation to do. C++ game and Empirical Report.

Assignment-C++ game, Empirical Report, CTES which due next week.

3 final subjects-CTES, physics, C++..

less than 10 days to study. tension!

Nothing much can i do when i'm moody. don't feel like doing anything.

i have to admit that my mind is thinking about life after intec which i shouldn't think right now.
frankly speaking, i think the reason why i'm so emo not because of stuffs in intec, isn't hectic actually. but because stuffs after intec.

i'm sorry, friends if my moody-ness brings some effects to u guys...

gambateh for the final week of this spring sem.

26-30 april, btn!

Revealing the real me

Since I came to INTEC, I have been labeled as a spendthrift.
Back then, I was not a spendthrift. Every cent I used  I counted. My family is not a rich family. Although both of my parents are working, the monthly income of the whole family never reach RM4K.

Back then, i never brought branded stuffs. The most branded stuff i had ever had was my "body glove" purse. That's the real me.

It's ironic to say that INTEC has changed me. I regretted. I shouldn't spend so much. Now, I understand why the people living in "Luxurious" never had enough money to spend. They brought branded stuffs which sometimes the quality is almost the same as non-branded stuffs. Even now, I would not buy a pant which costs almost RM300. I really have to say that I'm surrounded by friends who are really rich.

I seldom reveal my family background. Seriously, i am not that rich. I spent money on useful things. The most expensive stuff I bought for myself was my MNG bag which costs me RM135. I still can't believe that I had spent that much of money.

Back then, RM50 is a lot already. Now, even RM500 is not that much. I am regret to be a spendthrift.

Living in INTEC really made me a spendthrift.

I have to say this: Friends, please remind me I am not a child of a rich family. My parents still need the money. Without those branded clothes and stuffs, I can still survive. Don't change my perspective of life.

Towards the end of my my CNY holiday a.k.a Mid-term Break

I have a wonderful holiday despite a few sad moments.

13 Feb (EVE)

-Helping grandma to prepare some food for our ancestor. (No, i didn't help at all).

-I was sleeping till they wake me up.

-After paying respect to my maternal ancestors, we started our journey to Bachok. 

-My brother was driving there. He was lost. Here, begins the same CNY story every year. 

-My family arrived almost 12 which the time was almost exceeded. We have time to pray. 

-I met my relatives from my father's side.

-As a tradition, i got "ang pau" during the eve.

-The same story as last year, they were asking me about my studies.

-We spent 3 hours there. 

-After that, we went back to grandma's house.

-No much story for the eve.

-My family didn't practice reunion dinner, both for father's and mother's sides.

14 Feb (1st Day of CNY)

-Got ang pau!

-Having breakfast in my grandma's house.

-visited neighbors of my grandma.

-Went to Tumpat as usual.

-Night, steamboat at my grandma's house.

15 Feb (2nd Day of CNY)

-Did nothing.

-evening, go to Aril/Pauh Lima.

16 Feb (3th Day of CNY)

-morning, fifah and nadya came to my house.

-staying at grandma's house.

-went to tesco to buy some stuff for gathering.

17 Feb(4th Day of CNY)

-I wake up at 11.

-Oh no, i totally forgot that my relatives from my father's side were coming.

-GATHERING

-Mum brought Laksa.

-Dad fried chicken.

-Having a great day.

-Then, went to "bai nian" at relatives' house.

-That's ALL.

18 Feb(5th Day of CNY)

-Morning, went to KB,

-First Destination-Dental Surgery, but just for3 minutes. I was crying after coming out from the clinic. 

-having bad mood since then.

-A lot of things happened.

-I was unable to have my denture yet since my denture was missing.

-I need to find a place to do my denture. i don't want denture, i want bridges or implant one but the prices in kelantan are too expensive. 

-Skip that.

-Went to tesco again to buy stuff for gathering.

-After that, went back to tm and bought something from wet market.

-Went out yamcha with pc, pw and ps.

-Night, GATHERING at my house.. BBQ

-Thought-->not so successful.

-They were not mingle around. Having their own gangs. 

-Btw, friends, thanks for coming. Hopefully you guys have had a great day.
-After that, i went to Lek Aing's house. Chat, chat and chat.
-Kampar trip was emerged.

19 Feb (6th Day of CNY)

-start working on my literature assignment.
-evening, went to Teacher Lee, my previous chinese language teacher. Thanks him i got A2 for my chinese in my PMR.
-He just moved to his new house. Whoa.
-I just realized by sending me to USA, JPA can buy 3 bungalows dy.XD.
-Went to Chiang Rai to eat dinner together with friends.
-After that, went to ai cing open house.
-We drink, drink and drink.Chat, chat and chat again.
-Went back to home at almost 12.
-Some of them continue at lek aing's house.
-I didn't go for the sake of my literature assignment.

20 Feb (7th Day of CNY a.k.a Today)
-Morning ate breakfast at TM Maju with friends again. Gathering again.
-Then i came back. I didn't go bai nian with them at jin shui's house for the sake of literature again.
-Now, i am blogging doing nothing.
-I haven't done my literature, 3 pages to go.
-Tonight will go Miss Carolyn's house.
-Utar-ians went back to kampar today morning after the breakfast.
-Jin shui fetchs his brother back to plkn's camp today.
-stpm-ers are nervous for their results, this coming thursday.
-others are going back to college tomorrow and the day after.

That's how i spent my CNY.
NO pictures taken.
No CAMERA
Sob!

Here got one, Thanks eugene for the picture. Ai Cing's Open House. Kids' "drunk" face.. Oh no!...

CNY- Thoughts

It's not a sin to have a green-eyed monster's feeling.

I saw people bought RM300 T-shirt which i can buy 3 pairs of clothes for 3 days of CNY.

I saw people bought brand-new RM2K cell phone which i can't afford.

I saw people drove a Mercedes benz which i hope i can drive it too one day.

I saw people living in bungalow and fully air-conditioned.

Whoa.

I envy them. I do hope i can become one of them.

They are nobody, some of them are my friends and relatives which before this couldn't afford it too.

Whatever it is..

All of these aren't mine.

I am poor. Living in a moderate family.

Before and after arriving TM

After finishing my "business" in INTEC, Chloe and I went to KTM Shah Alam together. We met some Intec-ians there who were also going to KL Sentral. Thanks for those helping me to take my luggage. Really appreciate your kindnesses.

The train to KL Sentral was there for almost half an hour but it wasn't moving. We had to use another platform to go to KL Sentral since the train was malfunction. We arrived KL Sentral about 7 in the evening. I met Yie Wan at KFC. While waiting for her sister, Chloe had her dinner together with us. Unexpectedly, i met fellow TM-ians and Kelantaneses in KL Sentral which also meant in the same train.

About 8.10, we went into the train, the train started moving on 8.35. I can't sleep. I online for awhile since my laptop battery had not dead yet. About 11p.m, the train stop somewhere, i saw vivian passed by my bed, i thought i was dreaming. No, it was real, she was in the same couch as me. I faster smsed pc and her to confirm this matter, and yes, it was the true. We kept smsing each another until 12. After that, i fallen asleep, finally!

I woke up 7 in the morning. The people in train started talking again. About 9.30, the train arrived TM.

And here i am, home! Glad to see my room, my parents, etc.. I slept until 12.00, and then i followed my parents to KB..

We bought a lot of chickens which is rm2.88 per kg at tesco. DAMN cheap. It is fresh... About 8 chickens... We are having steamboat on first cny and bbq on 5th cny. But the chickens can't keep long, thus, just bought 8..

I bought a pair of slippers for myself..

After that, we went to aunt's house for awhile to give her 2 chickens.

:Lastly, we went back to grandma's house to prepare tomorrow dishes.

Now, i am here, blogging..

We were Late

Sunway Piramid is always the best place to hang out.
But...

Yesterday, i didn't manage to buy a thing from there.

We went to a lot of shops but still could not find a thing that we really wanted to buy.

After the literature class, i rushed back to Akasia and editted my C++ assignment at the very last minute.

Thanks to Maritha for helping me to hand in my assignment to the class rep.

We started our journey at 5 and arrived sunway at 6.

Yea, we ate sushi. Delicious.

After that, windows shopping.

Next, ate ice-cream.

Finally, GAMES.

I "love" driving and music games!

I hate the guy who acted childish. We didn't plan to play to driving games with him. But he intentionally added himself to our games. And he acted damn childish by letting 2000m for us. Damn crazy. So what? if you won the games, what was the point? damn crazy! childish.. Not gentleman at all. Noob..

But we have had a lot of fun there.. Hehe!

we went back late and you know what happened. *-*

Coming Gathering at my house

I invited 30++ of my friends.
However, there are about 15-20 people are available that time.
I felt pity for those have to go back to their college/university before 18th January.
I really hope we can have a perfect gathering before all of us really moving towards our next destination which some of us have already done that.

I will be flying to USA this coming august if there isn't any bad things happen.
While for our ex-STPM friends, they are going to their respectively university after July.
After that, it is quite hard for us to have gathering like before.

For your information, CNY is the only holiday i have before July. My end of semester break is for BTN.
BTN is a camp that i have to attend before flying.

Since i have promised some of you guys that i am going to conduct a party if i managed to score good results in SPM which is an old story. However, i haven't kept my promise. Now, i think it's time for me to keep my promise by organizing a gathering this 18th January.

I hope that everyone will join this gathering but some replied that they are not available in TM.
However, i do have a positive response from those will be available in TM this coming 18th January.

I haven't set the theme for the gathering yet. I guess most probably it will be a BBQ or Steamboat or both or whatever that we commonly had for our previous parties.

Meet you guys soon..

Physics II oh physics II

I didn't really understand what my lecturer was teaching so far. He has been covered 4 chapters so far. It was not because his teaching method was not good, it was because i was the one who didn't really pay full attention during the lecture. 

First quiz, i really screwed, not one or two marks, was more than 3 marks out of 10 marks.

I can't hate physics 2, i have to love it. However, i found out that it isn't my cup of tea. I neither like nor dislike it. I love programming more. Majoring in electrical engineering makes me wonder whether i have chosen the right path or not?

After this post, i would like to start working on my physics 2. I want to score it. I have been doing nothing since yesterday. I went shopping yesterday and today, i have been sleeping for the whole day.

Omg: RM1785

Debit (Bank)

1^st January – RM500

9^th January – RM200

11^th January – RM100

21^st January – RM100

23^rd January – RM250

27^th January – RM50

28^th January – RM100

29^th January – RM300

Debit (Book)

Engineering Textbook – RM40

Speech Communication Textbook – RM35

XR’s Literature Books – RM110

TOTAL DEBIT: RM1785

Credit

C++ Textbook - RM63

Technical Writing Textbook – RM50

Saint Maybe – RM32

Printer’s Ink – RM140

Mouse – RM18

Spec – RM240

Federal Constitution – RM28

Top up Touch n Go – RM20

Total: RM 591

Credit (Giant)

2^nd January – RM88

21^st January – RM16

24^th January – RM4

Credit (Mydin)

3^rd January – RM25

7^th January – RM36

16^th January – RM7

22^nd January – RM5

23^rd January – RM28

28^th January – RM4

Total: RM 213

Credit (Clothes, Shoes, Beg, etc)

Espirit – RM176

Voir – RM 186

Nichii – RM36

Body Glove – RM50

Total: RM 448

Credit (Lunch + Dinner)

Weekdays – RM10 per day

Weekend – RM50 per weekend

Total: Less than RM 350

Credit (Laundry)

One Week – RM10

Total: RM 40

TOTAL CREDIT: RM 1642

Maybe More... 

I spent a lot this month.

Speechless.. 

Random thoughts

Calculus 3 students are having their test 1 today. I had had mine last semester. It was traumatized. I didn't score well. I am disappointed with myself as i almost forget all the things i learned in Calculus 3. I was assisting someone to prepare for her test, but frankly speaking, i didn't help much. She was not even need my help. Haha. She is good enough to study by her own. Calculus 3, one of the my favorite subjects although i didn't score well. I like it very much especially the last 2 chapters. Suddenly, i felt regret for selling my calculus textbook. In facts, i need it for my physics 2. Anyone else especially biotech students haven't sold their books? "sell to me"

I scored 24/25 for my C++ first quiz. I was not really happy with the results. Supposedly, i can score full mark but i did mistake for the theory question. I changed my answer in the last minute. Accuses are always accuses. Full stop to C++.

Technical writing, i will be in the same group with Zi Rui, Tung Lun and Littech. For both empirical report and website designing. Hopefully, we can score well for this subject. Email memo, next task!

Literature, i am still the "senyap" one in the class. I rarely spoke out. I finished reading my term paper novel as well as the color purple and of mice and men. Next two week, there will be a quiz about of mice and men. I do hope i will score well. I will reread it tonight or tomorrow. Comprehension.

CTES, my group volunteered to present first, but we failed. Red light. My group will present on 10 February, the day before Literature quiz 1. Next week, the class will be very bored without those were always speaking out their points. They are going to KL to hear a talk. About 10 people of literature class.Hopefully, the class will be cancelled.

I feel sleepy dy.. Napping... Nights..

Mr.C++ (I love him but he didn't love me)

I love C++ doesn't mean i can score well for it.

Quiz 1 made me realized that i am "weak" in theories again.

I want to score it but i had found out mistakes that i have done after the quiz. It did make me feel sad for awhile.

However, I don't feel anything like i failed to score well for calculus quiz although i just maybe lost 1 or 2 marks only. I felt nothing today.

The second quiz of the year 2010 was over.

I am looking forward for next quizzes.

For next and next quizzes, i will try to score well but i won't blame myself for not scoring full mark.

This semester i shall not be under pressure. I want to see the differences between studying to meet expectations and studying for knowledge.

This semester, i am studying for knowledge. I am not mind for any mistakes done so far. I am a normal human beings. I want to master a subject and not to score a subject.

Scoring doesn't mean mastering.

I have a totally different mindset this semester.

C++, i love it to the max!

Pessimistic Mindset Again

I'm a pessimistic person. I admit that.
I'm a Kiasu person. Yea, I am.
This semester i am taking C++ and physics 2 which i hope i can score A for both subjects. As for Technical Writing, Literature and Contemporary Legal issues, i do hope i can score well for these subjects but i won't blame myself if i didn't manage to score well.
Besides, for this semester, i hope that i can maintain my GCPA.

I think i didn't start this semester with good motivation and spirits. First quiz of spring 2010 which for me is a dilemma and traumatized. From there, i realized that without deep understanding, i can't score well. Thus, from that moment, i made a promise to myself - I want to revise back everything. Practice makes perfect.

Next week, i will have the second quiz of spring 2010 which is C++ quiz 1, i want to score it. Thus, this weekend, i will make sure i understand everything for first 2 chapters.
Sometimes, i might aim higher than my own ability. I am not a genius, i am just a normal human being that can make mistakes anytime. However, i would blame myself for the mistakes made. For me, silly and stupid mistakes should not appear in my life. It seems very unskilled and it would be the stupid accuse for not scoring well.

Okay, i got to go!

Traumatized Physics Quiz

Physics 2 isn't like Physics 1.

Frankly speaking, i have to admit that although i score A for physics 1, i didn't really have a strong basic about it.

Should i say it was luck?

Quiz 1 was testing on our understanding and not our skills to answer the question. 

Thus, the lesson learned from that quiz is:

"It was useless to be an expert in playing with formula if you didn't understand the basic concept of a theory!"

Weekend = Doing Nothing

Pokai is one of reason i chose to stay at hostel.
My friends are busy is another valid reason that i chose not to go out this weekend.
Lazy is my third reason why i'm here doing nothing.
the list goes on to infinity!

Seriously, i have done nothing this weekend.

I haven't brought clothes for the coming CNY.

I haven't started to do my assignments for every single subject.

Feeling so weird why i am changing to another PSL.

However, my attitude and behaviors have never ever changed.

I do hope i become more hardworking.
I do hope i have a decisive aim.
I do hope i can stick to one decision.

"Hectic" Semester

My timetable for this semester is not packed. I have no classes at all in Friday. However, i consider the subjects taken this semester is quite hard to handle especially Literature. I know my own weakness which is language. Literature is all about language. I have finished reading the color purple by Alice Walker and of mice and men one week ago. Now, i am reading Saint Maybe by anne tyler. Read, read, and read. That's what i am supposed to do for literature class. I'm quite disappointed  by my own performance in Literature class, i am damn "passive".I seldom voiced out my opinion. The truth was i didn't really understand what the short stories that we had read so far especially dry september.  I really hope i will be able to understand the coming short stories and brave to talk. Omg..

For other subjects, so far so good.. Just for the contemporary legal issues, we have selected our topic but we are facing problem to find the agreements (the black and white). I am same group with yc, kj and xr again for ctes assignment. We did pretty well for the presentation and term paper last semester. It was my own problem for not scoring well for my final grade. Yea, i screwed up my final paper. Thanks guys, hope we will do better this semester.

While for technical writing and C++, i hope i can perform well. That's all i wanted to say.

Lastly, physics 2, the most important subject for my major. All about electricity, can i get at least A for this subject? i really hope i can! i haven't started to do revision but i will do it tomorrow or the day after tomorrow.

You guys must say my life here is damn hectic without outings and everything. Yea, i admit it for this semester, i probably won't have time to buy clothes for coming CNY. i have informed my mum. She will try to buy some clothes for me first.

I went to Kinokuniya last sunday, i went alone after my C++ class. It was kinda fun. I enjoyed it. I went there to pay for my reserved book, Saint Maybe. Well, nobody knew it i went to kinokuniya because i managed to come back to hostel before 7, the time to eat dinner. Haha. I bought Mexican Buns from Roti Boy, i like it very much especially it just comes out from "ketuhar"! haha.

What else has i done last week? Nothing much.
This weekend i might do nothing as everyone is busy with their own uni's app.
THAT'S all first.. i am not in the mood of blogging, just simply update it!

Spring 2010 courses

As i expected, i will take Introduction to Contemporary Literature, Technical Writing, Physics 2, C++ and Contemporary Legal Issues.

Harold and Kumar.

Second Day of 2010

I slept at 3 in the morning today. About 8 in the morning, i wake up and then we took our breakfast in a restaurant near my aunt's house. After that, my parents and I started our journey to Shah Alam. We arrived my Hostel half an hour later. Ausmat Block will be renovated. It can be considered as a good news to the future residents of Akasia College but a bad news for us especially ATU 15's girls. This is because that block just located next to our block.

First Day of 2010

I slept at 4 in the morning and woke up at 11 in the morning.
My parents were chatting with my aunt's foster child in the morning before his friend come and fetch him to Raub. My aunt has gone to Malacca at 5 in the morning. Both of them, my aunt and her foster son are busy with their charity works. My aunt will come back tonight. However, i didn't know about her foster son's schedule. Yesterday's night was first time i met him. Frankly speaking, i wasn't close with relatives of my dad's side. My dad have 7 siblings including himself. My dad has a twin brother who has 3 or 4 children. Besides, my grandma and grandpa married twice. The family tree is so complicated. Both my paternal grandma and grandpa have passed away. I just knew my grandpa as my grandma has passed away before the day i came to this world. I was close with my cousins when my grandpa was still alive 5 or 6 years ago. Now, everything has changed. Basically, we just met each other during CNY. I met my aunt at KL more often than other relatives of my dad's side. However, I just met her when my parents came to KL.  


After having breakfast(Wan Tan Mee), I changed my clothes and we went to Jaya Jusco Kepong which is just at the back of my aunt's neighborhood. We bought clothes, begs and food. I bought 1 T-shirt and 1 long pant. After shopping session, my mum suggested to eat vege food. Veggie food at Kepong didn't cost much. Normal price RM2 per dish. Today, free of charge! However, i didn't finish the food, i felt like vomiting. Maybe, i haven't suit myself to eat veggie food. There were a lot of customers there. By looking at their face expression, the food tasted nice to them. 


After that, I'here doing nothing. That's how i spent my first day of 2010.