having fun? oh really. i pokai liao.

can i live with rm60 for 2 weeks? we wait and see.

some random update

1myselfpsl is totally different from myselfpsl
the previous blog
y? this blog, i'm always emo, emo and emo
yet, today update is also emo

yea, i'm going to purdue to further my studies but why am i still worry about maryland? i'm kiasu!
that's the answer. everyone gotten it just me is pending, so i'm worry. haha, stupid me actually.

c++ 2, so far so bad. i didn't get a single thing that i learned from lecture. haiz. assignment 1 given but i dunno how to do. die me!

hasn't gotten reply from physics 2's lecturer, only he knew the reason why i failed to score expected result for my final. i really want to know. pls tell me. tell me i'm bad in physics, i can accept it. just tell me the truth, thanks.

my friendship killing me. haiz

that's all. just to express. nothing much than that~

doubt about my capabilities

omg
such a bad mood
estimated i score terribly for physics 2 final
made me doubt about my capabilities to continue majoring in electrical engineering or any other engineerings.

it's not easy to forget if i had expected it to be a good grade

i never expected it to kill my cgpa.

haiz. i am totally speechless. i really really no ideas at all why my final was screwed.

it's beyond my worst expectation!.
god if you were existed, send me the clue. i seriously want to know it, no matter what, i can accept it.

results

all the results are beyond my expectation except for C++.

i never expected to score well for technical writing, literature and ctes.

i expected to score well in physics but i scored bad, worse than my worse expectation for my physics 2. anyone can tell me the reasons why i scored bad for my physics 2?

i really really disappointed.

it's like out of my world. i never score that bad for the subject i expected to score well. i didn't even had the feeling that i would score bad after final. it's really strange. super strange. i really dunno. according to my lecturer, i did bad for my final. but y, i couldn't feel it. with my grade i gotten, if just final affected it, i really have to think how bad i am in physics, it's super bad bcs i score almost full mark for the others 60%. 40% for the final, let said i lost 3 marks the max for the 60%. B+ is 87 to 90, let's said i score 89, the highest for B+, i should have lost 8% out of 40%, that's meant i lost 20 out of 100, the minimum for the final. That's means 80/100, it's really incredibly low. it's really worse than my worst expectation. or might be lower than 80!

What?

i really can't accept the reality, do i have the chance to take a look at my final paper?

i really upset.

STUPID

it's me, not others, yea, stupid

am i rush? yea
am i stupid? yea
am i crazy? yea
am i bored? yea

haiz.

housing hasn't settled.

C++ 2

I have been assigned to take psychology this semester. However, i requested to take C++ 2 and my appeal was succeed.

Computer programming 2 is the exact name for the course. I have missed 2 lectures but i asked my friends, they haven't started any lessons yet. Thus, i assume it should be a problem for me to catchup.

However, i attended 2 day lectures of psychology and found out that it was not my cup of tea. It is bored like hell. Although summer semester is a relaxing semester, but i think i should take something that is beneficial to my major.

Hopefully, my decision won't lead me to a miserable life.