Myself Moves forward to discover her future

Make me wonder but no sad feeling :) Computer Programing 2

2010-07-08T18:01:00.001+08:00

oh gosh.

Lazy to blog now.

oh yea, holiday

2010-07-05T04:56:00.000+08:00

yea, i'm holiday-ing now.

I sempat met my old friends before they leaving for university.

Congratulations.

Now, i'm at TM doing nothing, keep thinking of DSLR which is kinda of impossible for me to get one, my family isn't rich!

Sob, sob, i want a DSLR, eos 550D or D5000! someone please give me as whatever gift, XD.

recently, kinda of lazy to update my blog.

just feel like staying home doing nothing. XD.

time to update about the half of the summer semester

2010-06-07T09:30:00.001+08:00

where am i now?

C++ lab.

whoa.

Btw, i'm going to update about my current activities.

I went to Genting and Malacca last weekend.

Had fun

Awesome. Thanks friends.

However, i still having problem. Maybe that's my own problem. Maybe i think too much.

Besides, i i cooked last night. Thanks for becoming the white mouses.

Oh YEAH, we will have a potluck tomorrow's night. Attendees, girls, about 15 of us.

Recursion, pointer, class, method, etc ->PROGRAMMING

2010-06-02T02:01:00.000+08:00

50% of the summer gone

2010-05-28T02:40:00.000+08:00

I had had my C++ test 1 today, the only test before final examination. Screwed it or not, it doesn't matter anyway.

After finished my test, i came back to akasia while others went to sunway. I had to replace my maybank visa debit card as it couldn't be used anymore. I waited in maybank for 2 hours. while waiting, i online. hehe.

Before coming back, we went to ossp to ask about jpa medical check up, whoa, it's lengthy and "tebal". sweat==''. injection again!

After maybank, i slept till 7 p.m. my dad and mum kept calling me asking me about whether to buy this and that or not. luggage winter wear, etc. as usual, i said, sui bian la. that's no point of calling me. XD. in the end, they will decide to buy it or not. haha. well, i guess they bought the 20-inch polo luggage and one winter wear today. tomorrow they will call again for other stuffs.

the international driving license can be applied for 1 year only. haiz. super sob.

what else? brickfield wesak day-not going. sorry!

today lowyat
29/30 May Relay for Life

3/4 June Genting
5 June Malacca
6 June Kajang
10/11 June Muar or Back to Kelantan

the list goes on...
hopefully.

went to nowhere in may! bcs my heart wasn't opened yet!

Random financial update

2010-05-26T03:50:00.000+08:00

I haven't prepared!
Pizza Hut + Noodle Station
Zero Cent Left!
Owed Bev RM4.30.

ATM card rosak.
Couldn't withdraw money.

me pokai but life is going on

2010-05-23T03:11:00.000+08:00

last week, really pokai.
now also.
brought a luggage cost me rm220, my mum said expensive.

she banked in rm300 for 2 luggage, one smallest, one largest. but i just brought one 28-inch luggage.

now, pokai. before rm300 was banked in, i got rm50. now, got rm40. bcs spending on food and everything when went to subang.

RM40 or less to be spent in one week. Siew La, you can do it!

this coming 29/30 may, bukit jalil, relay for life, hopefully don't have to spend a single cent, but i guess i will bcs i like to donate, sweat==''

before that, i got c++ test (20%) on this coming thursday, gg liao.

then on 3/4 june, going to genting, rm40 for hotel, then transportation, and everything, i don't have money, how? haven't told my parents, haiz, sure die one.
i need at least rm200 for this trip.

then one more week or on the same week, wanna go to malacca, but i pokai liao, have to ask money again?

omg.

really pokai, and really dunno what to do. work part-time i afraid i can't take it la. so, didn't!

haiz.

dad and mum, sorry, i really pokai. use lots before.

having fun? oh really. i pokai liao.

2010-05-17T00:45:00.000+08:00

can i live with rm60 for 2 weeks? we wait and see.

some random update

2010-05-15T02:22:00.000+08:00

1myselfpsl is totally different from myselfpsl
the previous blog
y? this blog, i'm always emo, emo and emo
yet, today update is also emo

yea, i'm going to purdue to further my studies but why am i still worry about maryland? i'm kiasu!
that's the answer. everyone gotten it just me is pending, so i'm worry. haha, stupid me actually.

c++ 2, so far so bad. i didn't get a single thing that i learned from lecture. haiz. assignment 1 given but i dunno how to do. die me!

hasn't gotten reply from physics 2's lecturer, only he knew the reason why i failed to score expected result for my final. i really want to know. pls tell me. tell me i'm bad in physics, i can accept it. just tell me the truth, thanks.

my friendship killing me. haiz

that's all. just to express. nothing much than that~

doubt about my capabilities

2010-05-10T08:17:00.000+08:00

omg
such a bad mood
estimated i score terribly for physics 2 final
made me doubt about my capabilities to continue majoring in electrical engineering or any other engineerings.

it's not easy to forget if i had expected it to be a good grade

i never expected it to kill my cgpa.

haiz. i am totally speechless. i really really no ideas at all why my final was screwed.

it's beyond my worst expectation!.
god if you were existed, send me the clue. i seriously want to know it, no matter what, i can accept it.

results

2010-05-08T11:43:00.000+08:00

all the results are beyond my expectation except for C++.

i never expected to score well for technical writing, literature and ctes.

i expected to score well in physics but i scored bad, worse than my worse expectation for my physics 2. anyone can tell me the reasons why i scored bad for my physics 2?

i really really disappointed.

it's like out of my world. i never score that bad for the subject i expected to score well. i didn't even had the feeling that i would score bad after final. it's really strange. super strange. i really dunno. according to my lecturer, i did bad for my final. but y, i couldn't feel it. with my grade i gotten, if just final affected it, i really have to think how bad i am in physics, it's super bad bcs i score almost full mark for the others 60%. 40% for the final, let said i lost 3 marks the max for the 60%. B+ is 87 to 90, let's said i score 89, the highest for B+, i should have lost 8% out of 40%, that's meant i lost 20 out of 100, the minimum for the final. That's means 80/100, it's really incredibly low. it's really worse than my worst expectation. or might be lower than 80!

What?

i really can't accept the reality, do i have the chance to take a look at my final paper?

i really upset.

STUPID

2010-05-07T00:58:00.000+08:00

it's me, not others, yea, stupid

2010-05-05T16:44:00.000+08:00

am i rush? yea
am i stupid? yea
am i crazy? yea
am i bored? yea

haiz.

housing hasn't settled.

C++ 2

2010-05-05T09:56:00.000+08:00

I have been assigned to take psychology this semester. However, i requested to take C++ 2 and my appeal was succeed.

Computer programming 2 is the exact name for the course. I have missed 2 lectures but i asked my friends, they haven't started any lessons yet. Thus, i assume it should be a problem for me to catchup.

However, i attended 2 day lectures of psychology and found out that it was not my cup of tea. It is bored like hell. Although summer semester is a relaxing semester, but i think i should take something that is beneficial to my major.

Hopefully, my decision won't lead me to a miserable life.

sometime i am curious am i that bad?

2010-05-02T02:27:00.000+08:00

i'm always alone and lonely.

yea, i have friends but never had a serious conversation before.

i have friends but they don't trust me, and so do i.

i have friends but neither of them really understand what i feel and so do i.

i have friends but never they honestly tell me what i have done and so do i.

fair enough?

i'm bad, yea, i admit.

i really feel bad for myself.

if possible, i want to tell you guys who called themselves my friends that i can't feel the friendship but i can't.

maybe you might say i'm pessimistic, ignorant or whatsoever. yea, i am.

who am i actually? how i behave actually? i really curious sometime.

being rush also wrong
being slow also wrong

care also wrong
don't care also wrong

now
i really dunno how to behave like a normal human being who has friends to talk and trust her and to trust her.

i just want to be normal

although i have high expectations, it doesn't mean i can't be normal.

haiz.

i really upset.

People have plan that will work out but i have plan that won't work at all.

2010-05-01T15:39:00.000+08:00

This will be my super-bored summer semester.

i want to go for vacations but i don't have enough friends and don't have friends to follow me to go for vacations.

places that i want to go
1) Lowyat
2) Genting
3) Langkawi
4) Sunway Lagoon
5) Malacca
6) Penang

i also want to taste "a little" liquor before flying to USA. not implied that i never drink liquor. just want to taste it again with different people and atmosphere.

i want to watch movies. movies and movies in cinema.

although it's summer semester, i don't want to screw the subject that i will take.

i want to have fun but i want to score it.

my plan will only work on my side which is score it bcs i have plenty of time to study bcs my other plans won't work at all.

The journey back to kelantan was cancelled due to...

2010-04-21T16:39:00.000+08:00

My tears were dropping down non-stop after knowing that jpa going to send me off to ohio state university. Thus, i cancelled my taxi to kl sentral and didn't manage to take the board on the train yesterday night.

Where am i now?
Subang Airport.

I'm not rich just i missed my bed so bed.

I really want to go back due to a lot of bad things happened around me recently.

I really want to take a rest.

I'm sorry, mum and dad. i know rm200 isn't easy to earn.

I just too lazy to blog about it. Thanks everyone in helping me sorting out my problem. Just pray hard for the most correct path for my future.

Overall, I have a awesome Spring Semester, but ...

2010-04-20T14:15:00.000+08:00

Spring 2010, today marks the end of IT. I have just finished my final examination.
Despite the sudden breakthrough news that has made me depressed and wonder about my personality, spring semester was really awesome.

Let's start with the good things first.

Literature with Mr.Kamal
As you all knew me, myselfpsl, never like languages. However, she enjoyed literature class. I have learned a lot about American's writing. The more i learn about literature, the more i love language. Thanks

Physics 2 with Mr. Nizam
Simple lecture yet complicated stuff. Hopefully, i can score well for this subject although it's not transferable.

C++ with Ms.Saidatul
I love this subject very much. I enjoy every single thing i learned. If possible, i really want to major in it.

Technical Writing with Ms.Kiranjeet
Just normal esl course. Didn't aim high for this. Thanks to my teammates! You guys have surely upgraded my grade.

and Finally CTES with Mr.Redha
Legal issues, didn't aim for it too.. Still, i was thinking of opt it but given up due to the high carrier mark, 52/60. The highest for actp is 53. If i did well for the final, the highest i could get is B+. just hope for that.

Enough with academic stuffs. Let's move on to my life.

YEa, it's depressing.

I really depressed.

It's undeniable i'm bad but i'm not that bad.

I might be selfish but my selfishness is not that high.

Really don't want to talk about it.

Friends, if you really cared, just let's me be what i want to be.

I really upset to hear that i'm irritating and annoying and selfish and unethical.

Full stop.

Yea, going back to tm real soon.

I'm emo again!

2010-04-15T20:20:00.000+08:00

Frankly speaking, my emoness can be stopped.
Final is approaching. What i can say for my progress is 0% studied.

Took a look at my test 2 paper, surprisingly, i didn't screw it but i screwed my quiz 4 which me i lost 1.7 mark for final grade.

i have to score above 90 in the final examination which is kinda of impossible for me to score A!
I need want a A not A+ like others.

moody-it isn't my fault. i'm sorry.

2010-04-10T16:23:00.000+08:00

yea, i am emo these few days.
frankly speaking, i also dunno the specific reasons.
yea, i admit i feel sad before i didn't do well for my c++ test 2. i realized i wrote the program wrongly. that's my stupid mistake.
yea, i admit i feel tension that final is approaching.
yea, i admit i feel "unhappy" with my c++ game.
but all those things are normal things. should not have affected my mood.

10 more days, i will go back to TM. but, i am not that happy.

i have 2 more presentation to do. C++ game and Empirical Report.

Assignment-C++ game, Empirical Report, CTES which due next week.

3 final subjects-CTES, physics, C++..

less than 10 days to study. tension!

Nothing much can i do when i'm moody. don't feel like doing anything.

i have to admit that my mind is thinking about life after intec which i shouldn't think right now.
frankly speaking, i think the reason why i'm so emo not because of stuffs in intec, isn't hectic actually. but because stuffs after intec.

i'm sorry, friends if my moody-ness brings some effects to u guys...

gambateh for the final week of this spring sem.

26-30 april, btn!

Revealing the real me

2010-03-28T05:04:00.000+08:00

Since I came to INTEC, I have been labeled as a spendthrift.
Back then, I was not a spendthrift. Every cent I used I counted. My family is not a rich family. Although both of my parents are working, the monthly income of the whole family never reach RM4K.

Back then, i never brought branded stuffs. The most branded stuff i had ever had was my "body glove" purse. That's the real me.

It's ironic to say that INTEC has changed me. I regretted. I shouldn't spend so much. Now, I understand why the people living in "Luxurious" never had enough money to spend. They brought branded stuffs which sometimes the quality is almost the same as non-branded stuffs. Even now, I would not buy a pant which costs almost RM300. I really have to say that I'm surrounded by friends who are really rich.

I seldom reveal my family background. Seriously, i am not that rich. I spent money on useful things. The most expensive stuff I bought for myself was my MNG bag which costs me RM135. I still can't believe that I had spent that much of money.

Back then, RM50 is a lot already. Now, even RM500 is not that much. I am regret to be a spendthrift.

Living in INTEC really made me a spendthrift.

I have to say this: Friends, please remind me I am not a child of a rich family. My parents still need the money. Without those branded clothes and stuffs, I can still survive. Don't change my perspective of life.

Towards the end of my my CNY holiday a.k.a Mid-term Break

2010-02-20T16:29:00.000+08:00

I have a wonderful holiday despite a few sad moments.

13 Feb (EVE)

-Helping grandma to prepare some food for our ancestor. (No, i didn't help at all).

-I was sleeping till they wake me up.

-After paying respect to my maternal ancestors, we started our journey to Bachok.

-My brother was driving there. He was lost. Here, begins the same CNY story every year.

-My family arrived almost 12 which the time was almost exceeded. We have time to pray.

-I met my relatives from my father's side.

-As a tradition, i got "ang pau" during the eve.

-The same story as last year, they were asking me about my studies.

-We spent 3 hours there.

-After that, we went back to grandma's house.

-No much story for the eve.

-My family didn't practice reunion dinner, both for father's and mother's sides.

14 Feb (1st Day of CNY)

-Got ang pau!

-Having breakfast in my grandma's house.

-visited neighbors of my grandma.

-Went to Tumpat as usual.

-Night, steamboat at my grandma's house.

15 Feb (2nd Day of CNY)

-Did nothing.

-evening, go to Aril/Pauh Lima.

16 Feb (3th Day of CNY)

-morning, fifah and nadya came to my house.

-staying at grandma's house.

-went to tesco to buy some stuff for gathering.

17 Feb(4th Day of CNY)

-I wake up at 11.

-Oh no, i totally forgot that my relatives from my father's side were coming.

-GATHERING

-Mum brought Laksa.

-Dad fried chicken.

-Having a great day.

-Then, went to "bai nian" at relatives' house.

-That's ALL.

18 Feb(5th Day of CNY)

-Morning, went to KB,

-First Destination-Dental Surgery, but just for3 minutes. I was crying after coming out from the clinic.

-having bad mood since then.

-A lot of things happened.

-I was unable to have my denture yet since my denture was missing.

-I need to find a place to do my denture. i don't want denture, i want bridges or implant one but the prices in kelantan are too expensive.

-Skip that.

-Went to tesco again to buy stuff for gathering.

-After that, went back to tm and bought something from wet market.

-Went out yamcha with pc, pw and ps.

-Night, GATHERING at my house.. BBQ

-Thought-->not so successful.

-They were not mingle around. Having their own gangs.

-Btw, friends, thanks for coming. Hopefully you guys have had a great day.
-After that, i went to Lek Aing's house. Chat, chat and chat.
-Kampar trip was emerged.

19 Feb (6th Day of CNY)

-start working on my literature assignment.
-evening, went to Teacher Lee, my previous chinese language teacher. Thanks him i got A2 for my chinese in my PMR.
-He just moved to his new house. Whoa.
-I just realized by sending me to USA, JPA can buy 3 bungalows dy.XD.
-Went to Chiang Rai to eat dinner together with friends.
-After that, went to ai cing open house.
-We drink, drink and drink.Chat, chat and chat again.
-Went back to home at almost 12.
-Some of them continue at lek aing's house.
-I didn't go for the sake of my literature assignment.

20 Feb (7th Day of CNY a.k.a Today)
-Morning ate breakfast at TM Maju with friends again. Gathering again.
-Then i came back. I didn't go bai nian with them at jin shui's house for the sake of literature again.
-Now, i am blogging doing nothing.
-I haven't done my literature, 3 pages to go.
-Tonight will go Miss Carolyn's house.
-Utar-ians went back to kampar today morning after the breakfast.
-Jin shui fetchs his brother back to plkn's camp today.
-stpm-ers are nervous for their results, this coming thursday.
-others are going back to college tomorrow and the day after.

That's how i spent my CNY.
NO pictures taken.
No CAMERA
Sob!

Here got one, Thanks eugene for the picture. Ai Cing's Open House. Kids' "drunk" face.. Oh no!...

CNY- Thoughts

2010-02-15T16:47:00.000+08:00

It's not a sin to have a green-eyed monster's feeling.

I saw people bought RM300 T-shirt which i can buy 3 pairs of clothes for 3 days of CNY.

I saw people bought brand-new RM2K cell phone which i can't afford.

I saw people drove a Mercedes benz which i hope i can drive it too one day.

I saw people living in bungalow and fully air-conditioned.

Whoa.

I envy them. I do hope i can become one of them.

They are nobody, some of them are my friends and relatives which before this couldn't afford it too.

Whatever it is..

All of these aren't mine.

I am poor. Living in a moderate family.

Before and after arriving TM

2010-02-13T00:25:00.000+08:00

After finishing my "business" in INTEC, Chloe and I went to KTM Shah Alam together. We met some Intec-ians there who were also going to KL Sentral. Thanks for those helping me to take my luggage. Really appreciate your kindnesses.

The train to KL Sentral was there for almost half an hour but it wasn't moving. We had to use another platform to go to KL Sentral since the train was malfunction. We arrived KL Sentral about 7 in the evening. I met Yie Wan at KFC. While waiting for her sister, Chloe had her dinner together with us. Unexpectedly, i met fellow TM-ians and Kelantaneses in KL Sentral which also meant in the same train.

About 8.10, we went into the train, the train started moving on 8.35. I can't sleep. I online for awhile since my laptop battery had not dead yet. About 11p.m, the train stop somewhere, i saw vivian passed by my bed, i thought i was dreaming. No, it was real, she was in the same couch as me. I faster smsed pc and her to confirm this matter, and yes, it was the true. We kept smsing each another until 12. After that, i fallen asleep, finally!

I woke up 7 in the morning. The people in train started talking again. About 9.30, the train arrived TM.

And here i am, home! Glad to see my room, my parents, etc.. I slept until 12.00, and then i followed my parents to KB..

We bought a lot of chickens which is rm2.88 per kg at tesco. DAMN cheap. It is fresh... About 8 chickens... We are having steamboat on first cny and bbq on 5th cny. But the chickens can't keep long, thus, just bought 8..

I bought a pair of slippers for myself..

After that, we went to aunt's house for awhile to give her 2 chickens.

:Lastly, we went back to grandma's house to prepare tomorrow dishes.

Now, i am here, blogging..

We were Late

2010-02-05T02:24:00.000+08:00

Sunway Piramid is always the best place to hang out.
But...

Yesterday, i didn't manage to buy a thing from there.

We went to a lot of shops but still could not find a thing that we really wanted to buy.

After the literature class, i rushed back to Akasia and editted my C++ assignment at the very last minute.

Thanks to Maritha for helping me to hand in my assignment to the class rep.

We started our journey at 5 and arrived sunway at 6.

Yea, we ate sushi. Delicious.

After that, windows shopping.

Next, ate ice-cream.

Finally, GAMES.

I "love" driving and music games!

I hate the guy who acted childish. We didn't plan to play to driving games with him. But he intentionally added himself to our games. And he acted damn childish by letting 2000m for us. Damn crazy. So what? if you won the games, what was the point? damn crazy! childish.. Not gentleman at all. Noob..

But we have had a lot of fun there.. Hehe!

we went back late and you know what happened. *-*

Coming Gathering at my house

2010-02-02T01:31:00.000+08:00

I invited 30++ of my friends.
However, there are about 15-20 people are available that time.
I felt pity for those have to go back to their college/university before 18th January.
I really hope we can have a perfect gathering before all of us really moving towards our next destination which some of us have already done that.

I will be flying to USA this coming august if there isn't any bad things happen.
While for our ex-STPM friends, they are going to their respectively university after July.
After that, it is quite hard for us to have gathering like before.

For your information, CNY is the only holiday i have before July. My end of semester break is for BTN.
BTN is a camp that i have to attend before flying.

Since i have promised some of you guys that i am going to conduct a party if i managed to score good results in SPM which is an old story. However, i haven't kept my promise. Now, i think it's time for me to keep my promise by organizing a gathering this 18th January.

I hope that everyone will join this gathering but some replied that they are not available in TM.
However, i do have a positive response from those will be available in TM this coming 18th January.

I haven't set the theme for the gathering yet. I guess most probably it will be a BBQ or Steamboat or both or whatever that we commonly had for our previous parties.

Meet you guys soon..

Physics II oh physics II

2010-01-30T22:40:00.000+08:00

I didn't really understand what my lecturer was teaching so far. He has been covered 4 chapters so far. It was not because his teaching method was not good, it was because i was the one who didn't really pay full attention during the lecture.

First quiz, i really screwed, not one or two marks, was more than 3 marks out of 10 marks.

I can't hate physics 2, i have to love it. However, i found out that it isn't my cup of tea. I neither like nor dislike it. I love programming more. Majoring in electrical engineering makes me wonder whether i have chosen the right path or not?

After this post, i would like to start working on my physics 2. I want to score it. I have been doing nothing since yesterday. I went shopping yesterday and today, i have been sleeping for the whole day.

Omg: RM1785

2010-01-30T00:10:00.000+08:00

Debit (Bank)

1^st January – RM500

9^th January – RM200

11^th January – RM100

21^st January – RM100

23^rd January – RM250

27^th January – RM50

28^th January – RM100

29^th January – RM300

Debit (Book)

Engineering Textbook – RM40

Speech Communication Textbook – RM35

XR’s Literature Books – RM110

TOTAL DEBIT: RM1785

Credit

C++ Textbook - RM63

Technical Writing Textbook – RM50

Saint Maybe – RM32

Printer’s Ink – RM140

Mouse – RM18

Spec – RM240

Federal Constitution – RM28

Top up Touch n Go – RM20

Total: RM 591

Credit (Giant)

2^nd January – RM88

21^st January – RM16

24^th January – RM4

Credit (Mydin)

3^rd January – RM25

7^th January – RM36

16^th January – RM7

22^nd January – RM5

23^rd January – RM28

28^th January – RM4

Total: RM 213

Credit (Clothes, Shoes, Beg, etc)

Espirit – RM176

Voir – RM 186

Nichii – RM36

Body Glove – RM50

Total: RM 448

Credit (Lunch + Dinner)

Weekdays – RM10 per day

Weekend – RM50 per weekend

Total: Less than RM 350

Credit (Laundry)

One Week – RM10

Total: RM 40

TOTAL CREDIT: RM 1642

Maybe More...

I spent a lot this month.

Speechless..

Random thoughts

2010-01-28T17:04:00.000+08:00

Calculus 3 students are having their test 1 today. I had had mine last semester. It was traumatized. I didn't score well. I am disappointed with myself as i almost forget all the things i learned in Calculus 3. I was assisting someone to prepare for her test, but frankly speaking, i didn't help much. She was not even need my help. Haha. She is good enough to study by her own. Calculus 3, one of the my favorite subjects although i didn't score well. I like it very much especially the last 2 chapters. Suddenly, i felt regret for selling my calculus textbook. In facts, i need it for my physics 2. Anyone else especially biotech students haven't sold their books? "sell to me"

I scored 24/25 for my C++ first quiz. I was not really happy with the results. Supposedly, i can score full mark but i did mistake for the theory question. I changed my answer in the last minute. Accuses are always accuses. Full stop to C++.

Technical writing, i will be in the same group with Zi Rui, Tung Lun and Littech. For both empirical report and website designing. Hopefully, we can score well for this subject. Email memo, next task!

Literature, i am still the "senyap" one in the class. I rarely spoke out. I finished reading my term paper novel as well as the color purple and of mice and men. Next two week, there will be a quiz about of mice and men. I do hope i will score well. I will reread it tonight or tomorrow. Comprehension.

CTES, my group volunteered to present first, but we failed. Red light. My group will present on 10 February, the day before Literature quiz 1. Next week, the class will be very bored without those were always speaking out their points. They are going to KL to hear a talk. About 10 people of literature class.Hopefully, the class will be cancelled.

I feel sleepy dy.. Napping... Nights..

Mr.C++ (I love him but he didn't love me)

2010-01-25T15:57:00.000+08:00

I love C++ doesn't mean i can score well for it.

Quiz 1 made me realized that i am "weak" in theories again.

I want to score it but i had found out mistakes that i have done after the quiz. It did make me feel sad for awhile.

However, I don't feel anything like i failed to score well for calculus quiz although i just maybe lost 1 or 2 marks only. I felt nothing today.

The second quiz of the year 2010 was over.

I am looking forward for next quizzes.

For next and next quizzes, i will try to score well but i won't blame myself for not scoring full mark.

This semester i shall not be under pressure. I want to see the differences between studying to meet expectations and studying for knowledge.

This semester, i am studying for knowledge. I am not mind for any mistakes done so far. I am a normal human beings. I want to master a subject and not to score a subject.

Scoring doesn't mean mastering.

I have a totally different mindset this semester.

C++, i love it to the max!

Pessimistic Mindset Again

2010-01-22T14:43:00.000+08:00

I'm a pessimistic person. I admit that.
I'm a Kiasu person. Yea, I am.
This semester i am taking C++ and physics 2 which i hope i can score A for both subjects. As for Technical Writing, Literature and Contemporary Legal issues, i do hope i can score well for these subjects but i won't blame myself if i didn't manage to score well.
Besides, for this semester, i hope that i can maintain my GCPA.

I think i didn't start this semester with good motivation and spirits. First quiz of spring 2010 which for me is a dilemma and traumatized. From there, i realized that without deep understanding, i can't score well. Thus, from that moment, i made a promise to myself - I want to revise back everything. Practice makes perfect.

Next week, i will have the second quiz of spring 2010 which is C++ quiz 1, i want to score it. Thus, this weekend, i will make sure i understand everything for first 2 chapters.
Sometimes, i might aim higher than my own ability. I am not a genius, i am just a normal human being that can make mistakes anytime. However, i would blame myself for the mistakes made. For me, silly and stupid mistakes should not appear in my life. It seems very unskilled and it would be the stupid accuse for not scoring well.

Okay, i got to go!

Traumatized Physics Quiz

2010-01-22T01:01:00.000+08:00

Physics 2 isn't like Physics 1.

Frankly speaking, i have to admit that although i score A for physics 1, i didn't really have a strong basic about it.

Should i say it was luck?

Quiz 1 was testing on our understanding and not our skills to answer the question.

Thus, the lesson learned from that quiz is:

"It was useless to be an expert in playing with formula if you didn't understand the basic concept of a theory!"

Weekend = Doing Nothing

2010-01-17T00:57:00.000+08:00

Pokai is one of reason i chose to stay at hostel.
My friends are busy is another valid reason that i chose not to go out this weekend.
Lazy is my third reason why i'm here doing nothing.
the list goes on to infinity!

Seriously, i have done nothing this weekend.

I haven't brought clothes for the coming CNY.

I haven't started to do my assignments for every single subject.

Feeling so weird why i am changing to another PSL.

However, my attitude and behaviors have never ever changed.

I do hope i become more hardworking.
I do hope i have a decisive aim.
I do hope i can stick to one decision.

"Hectic" Semester

2010-01-16T01:07:00.000+08:00

My timetable for this semester is not packed. I have no classes at all in Friday. However, i consider the subjects taken this semester is quite hard to handle especially Literature. I know my own weakness which is language. Literature is all about language. I have finished reading the color purple by Alice Walker and of mice and men one week ago. Now, i am reading Saint Maybe by anne tyler. Read, read, and read. That's what i am supposed to do for literature class. I'm quite disappointed by my own performance in Literature class, i am damn "passive".I seldom voiced out my opinion. The truth was i didn't really understand what the short stories that we had read so far especially dry september. I really hope i will be able to understand the coming short stories and brave to talk. Omg..

For other subjects, so far so good.. Just for the contemporary legal issues, we have selected our topic but we are facing problem to find the agreements (the black and white). I am same group with yc, kj and xr again for ctes assignment. We did pretty well for the presentation and term paper last semester. It was my own problem for not scoring well for my final grade. Yea, i screwed up my final paper. Thanks guys, hope we will do better this semester.

While for technical writing and C++, i hope i can perform well. That's all i wanted to say.

Lastly, physics 2, the most important subject for my major. All about electricity, can i get at least A for this subject? i really hope i can! i haven't started to do revision but i will do it tomorrow or the day after tomorrow.

You guys must say my life here is damn hectic without outings and everything. Yea, i admit it for this semester, i probably won't have time to buy clothes for coming CNY. i have informed my mum. She will try to buy some clothes for me first.

I went to Kinokuniya last sunday, i went alone after my C++ class. It was kinda fun. I enjoyed it. I went there to pay for my reserved book, Saint Maybe. Well, nobody knew it i went to kinokuniya because i managed to come back to hostel before 7, the time to eat dinner. Haha. I bought Mexican Buns from Roti Boy, i like it very much especially it just comes out from "ketuhar"! haha.

What else has i done last week? Nothing much.
This weekend i might do nothing as everyone is busy with their own uni's app.
THAT'S all first.. i am not in the mood of blogging, just simply update it!

Spring 2010 courses

2010-01-05T11:48:00.000+08:00

As i expected, i will take Introduction to Contemporary Literature, Technical Writing, Physics 2, C++ and Contemporary Legal Issues.

Harold and Kumar.

2010-01-04T02:57:00.000+08:00

Second Day of 2010

2010-01-02T10:16:00.000+08:00

I slept at 3 in the morning today. About 8 in the morning, i wake up and then we took our breakfast in a restaurant near my aunt's house. After that, my parents and I started our journey to Shah Alam. We arrived my Hostel half an hour later. Ausmat Block will be renovated. It can be considered as a good news to the future residents of Akasia College but a bad news for us especially ATU 15's girls. This is because that block just located next to our block.

First Day of 2010

2010-01-01T16:42:00.000+08:00

I slept at 4 in the morning and woke up at 11 in the morning.
My parents were chatting with my aunt's foster child in the morning before his friend come and fetch him to Raub. My aunt has gone to Malacca at 5 in the morning. Both of them, my aunt and her foster son are busy with their charity works. My aunt will come back tonight. However, i didn't know about her foster son's schedule. Yesterday's night was first time i met him. Frankly speaking, i wasn't close with relatives of my dad's side. My dad have 7 siblings including himself. My dad has a twin brother who has 3 or 4 children. Besides, my grandma and grandpa married twice. The family tree is so complicated. Both my paternal grandma and grandpa have passed away. I just knew my grandpa as my grandma has passed away before the day i came to this world. I was close with my cousins when my grandpa was still alive 5 or 6 years ago. Now, everything has changed. Basically, we just met each other during CNY. I met my aunt at KL more often than other relatives of my dad's side. However, I just met her when my parents came to KL.

After having breakfast(Wan Tan Mee), I changed my clothes and we went to Jaya Jusco Kepong which is just at the back of my aunt's neighborhood. We bought clothes, begs and food. I bought 1 T-shirt and 1 long pant. After shopping session, my mum suggested to eat vege food. Veggie food at Kepong didn't cost much. Normal price RM2 per dish. Today, free of charge! However, i didn't finish the food, i felt like vomiting. Maybe, i haven't suit myself to eat veggie food. There were a lot of customers there. By looking at their face expression, the food tasted nice to them.

After that, I'here doing nothing. That's how i spent my first day of 2010.

Goodby3 2009! Hi, 2010!

2009-12-31T21:39:00.000+08:00

Happy New Year!
New Spirits...
Full Stop.

University application Update!

2009-12-31T16:20:00.000+08:00

I submitted my Maryland online application today. I knew that it's impossible for me to get an admission letter from Wisconsin.
Read this:
Dear Pang Siew La,

Thank you for the update on your TOEFL results and the significant improvement. I am sorry to say that the score 94 is still too low for admission to the College of Engineering. Please know that numerous applicants have scores 100 and above. If you attend a different U.S. university and establish a successful academic record, including in English composition, you are welcome to apply for transfer admission.

Regards,

Bonnie Schmidt

Should i retake my TOEFL again?
However, there are too many things to be considered. 100 and above: It is not an easy job for me.
I didn't know what should i do now. Really need someone to tell me the solutions.

I still have 3 universities online application.
I haven't sent my stuff to Maryland. My dad will post it on the 3rd January.

Random thought about "JPA scholars"

2009-12-31T16:06:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, I didn't to Kinokuniya in the morning. I spent RM150 for myself, RM 100 for my friend. I brought magazine and magazine and magazine. 2 magazines about Gadgets. Reader's Digest and Cleo. I bought 2 literature books, although i am not sure whether I'm in literature class or not, i think it won't be a waste if i bought them. I started reading of men and mice by John Steinbeck. Halfway. The color purple by Alice Walker is damn thick and "it sounds hard". I do have a wish: I am not the "lucky" one.

In the evening, i went to UM to meet Yie Wan. We talked about our recent life. Sometimes, i thought i have chosen the wrong path. I did feel i'm lucky to get JPA scholarship to further my studies in USA. My friend in a private college who is under JPA told me JPA gives her RM600 allowance (food and accommodation). While Yie Wan who also a JPA scholar, told me JPA banked in all the money and they have to pay the college fees/accommodation/food by themselves. They have to use the money wisely. These friend are both taking engineering. Yie Wan is majoring in Telecommunication Engineering and my another friend is majoring in Mechanical Engineering. They have the same length of bonding which is 6 years. USA scholars, should we feel grateful? We all have almost the same achievement in SPM. We will further our studies overseas while our friends here will continue to study here. Besides, they have the same length of bonding as us. Supposedly, they should not to have such a long bonding as government will spend less money on them.

UM isn't big but it's big enough to discover new experiences. Yie Wan is leading a new way of life towards better future. As for now, I learnt nothing about engineering. Both of my friend in public and private university in Malaysia have learnt halfway about engineering. There are a lot of clubs and societies about engineering for them to join. We will graduate almost the same in next 3.5 years.

All three options to graduate as an engineer have their own pros and cons.
"OVERSEAS", "Local Public University", "Local Private College"

I will wait and see what we will be in the further.

It isn't a trip!

2009-12-30T02:17:00.000+08:00

I am here (KL) since 27 dec 2010. Something unexpected happened 2 days before the departure day. My parents have to come to KL to make things done before it is too late. First day, i was staying at Smart Hotel, Damansara. First day, nothing much was done. The hotel room cost us RM139.00. 1 double bed, 1 single bed. The room was small and uncomfortable at all. Provided with a flat screen TV, i spent my day watching movies through "STAR MOVIE" channel. The next day, after checking out, we went to our next destination, Petaling Jaya. We stayed at PJ De Inn Hotel. The hotel room only cost us RM119.00. 3 single beds. The room was big enough and comfortable. I prefer PJ De Inn Hotel. Same activity was conducted in that hotel. In those 2 days, we ate Chinese food including Dim Sum, "Pao", "Prawn Mee", etc. The next day, which was yesterday, we went to our next stop. After that, here we are, my aunt's house, in Kepong. We went to shopping complex nearby here after finishing our dinner. I wanted to buy a mouse but i didn't manage to do so. Tomorrow, we will go back to our previous stop, near UM. We might stay at my aunt's house till 31 January. Before that, we will go to KLCC to settle my brother's thing. Finding a digi dealer there to register Digi De Campus line for him under my name. I am not really willing to do but what to do. I can't find any valid accuses. Not much that i have done here. I was just online, online and online. Bye. Good Night.

TOEFL again!

2009-12-28T02:26:00.001+08:00

I think about TOEFL again.
Someone who just came out from Aussie "encouraged" me to think about TOEFL again.
She forwarded me the email sent by Uwisc.

"Yes, the College of Engineering will consider your second score after it 
has been submitted to the Office of Admissions.  Your application will 
be considered in relation to departmental capacity at that time.   
Please keep in communication with me so that your application is 
considered at that time.   Please know that the minimum TOEFL 
requirement is firm."

"A recent TOEFL score is required of all international students.  
International students abroad must have a minimum of 7 on IELTS or a 
TOEFL score of 600, 250, or 100 on the IBT TOEFL. "

She told me she planned to repeat. However, i checked the website there are no seats available in centers near and in KL until March.

However, there are seats available in KDU, Penang.

17 Jan, 23 Jan and etc...

Sleep first.

Good night.

27th Dec 2009

2009-12-26T21:59:00.000+08:00

I have to go to KL first because my parents have somethings to do at KL.
Basically, i just accompany them first before going back to polluted city.
I haven't done my other essays.
Deadline is approaching.
Full Stop. Not in the mood of blogging.

Sob =.=

2009-12-25T19:27:00.000+08:00

Today, i woke up earlier as my parents asked me to do so. We went to KB. Yea, we did.
I cried. Yea, i did.
{Some unexpected things happened.} I had to go back to KL this coming Monday.}
Thus, no more countdown's party and gatherings.
Friends, have fun!
Have to pack my things.
The end of the holiday..

Yam Cha $Steamboating

2009-12-25T01:41:00.000+08:00

I went out yesterday. Clarissa came to fetch me. I owned Pc RM22.20. Forgot to ask money from parents. Hehe.
We went to Makalu to eat "Steamboat". 5 girls 6 boys. RM20 per person. Kelyin, Pc, Cla, PY and me then went to TM Kopitiam to "Lim Teh".
Have had a great time chatting with them.

They planned to go vacations but i think i have no chance to join already as my holiday is coming to the end.
Have fun ppl!
They just started to Holiday.

Should I?

2009-12-24T03:16:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, i went out with Phey Yoong and Clarissa to buy present for the X'Mas celebration at JC's house.
House, the venue was changed at very last minute. We have bought the presents. Should i angry? We all are not going to that party. Reason: Transportation Problem. Anyway, thanks for the invitation. Hope you guys will have fun at Siew Phey's House. Yea, i admit Jc's house is quite small to occupy so many people. Conclusion: Most TM-ians are not going to tonight party.

After they decided not going to the X'mas party at Siew Phey's house, TM-ians planned to have "Steamboat" at Makalu. Should i go? I am not sure. UTAR-ians and MMU-ians at TM, they want to do gathering. Most UTAR-ians are guys which i am not so close with them. While for MMU-ians, just pc and vivian. Steamboat, have to pay RM20, i am not care about the money, just i will feel paiseh with some unknown there although they are my ex-classmates. P/s: We seldom talked and not at all!. Kelyin is not going. I want to meet her instead of meeting the unknown. PS didn't come back, will go to kl with her family. Not so many ppl that i wish to meet actually at TM now.

You can say me "i'm unfriendly", you can say me "tiao ke" or whatsoever. That's me.

Drove proton wira yesterday, "mati enjin" many times.
{shameful experience}

My Friends change, so do i.
I haven't started to pack my things, haven't done my essays.
Thinking of not going anywhere anymore.
Besides, i went to Mdm Zakiah's house with PY yesterday after sending clarissa back to her house, she was sleeping. Sorry for disturbing you, Mdm Zakiah. We went there at the wrong time, she told us. We chatted for less than half an hour. Her baby is cute. She asked me to go again, i said "see first". Might go again when ai cing came back. Loving chatting with her. Dunno why. She used to be my BM's tuition teacher since form 3. I was one of 8 of first gang of her tuition class. All 8 of us scored As for BM in PMR. After that, more and more ppl wanted to join her tuition classes. My years tuition-ers were increased dramatically. We had to separate into 2 groups. Each groups almost 15 ppl. Tc Zakiah hated to teach many ppl in one tuition session. Yea, i had been considered as the naughtiest student in her tuition class. I always changed group and went to her tuition class randomly. I always chose the time which i thought she would teach fewer students. Thanks to her, i won a price in a BM writing competition. Thanks to her, i had never failed to score less than 90 in BM since form 4. Thanks to her, i always scored highest in my form. Thanks to her, i realized a lot of things.

Without her "salty" advice, i might fail to score good grade in BM.

This coming 31 Dec, ex Mdm. Carolyn tuition students plan to do a countdown party at her house. Yea, i was her "spm 2007 leaver" english tuition student and also 2 weeks of MUET tuition student. This is another teacher i admire. Thanks to her, my English improved a lot. Thanks to her, i realized i have a lot of weaknesses. Thanks to her honesty, i almost cried after knowing that i was the only one in her tuition class who score good grades in SPM and got nothing at that time. Thanks to her, i realized i wasn't strong enough to face dilemma. Thanks for telling me i didn't deserve A1 for my english in SPM. Thanks. I really hope i can join that party and hope the party won't cancel or postpone or whatsoever. Please! I didn't meet you for a long time dy. The last time i met you in CNY, i missed PY's birthday celebration at your house which was 1 day after i departed back to shah alam.

My last week here might be "KOSONG" as before!

I haven't decided what to do tonight. Should i just follow my parents to KB or go to eat Steamboat or just staying at home? Why so tough? I have told my parents that i am going to JC's house for the party before they went to sleep. They saw me bought a present and wrap it. Now, i have to tell them the party was changing venue, HAIZ. Hard for me to do so. My parents sure will ask a lot of things. I am not in the mood answering them soon.

I have 0 cent in my "Dompet", if i wanted to go to eat steamboat, have to ask money from parents. "Had RM20 from Than Bhun which can't be used." HAiz

How?

Wait and see how.
I also dunno what will happen today.

1 more week.. Random Thought

2009-12-23T03:22:00.000+08:00

I'm going back to "Polluted City" soon.

Departing from TM Friday morning (1st January 2010), i will have a totally different mood.

I might have 2 more parties to attend, Jee Cheng's house might be the venue for fellow STPM-ers and TM-ians to celebrate X' Mas. Madam Carolyn's house might be the venue for MUET-ers to celebrate new year.

10th December 2009, i attended fellow eco stream STPM-ers' party. Although i am not so close with all of them, they treated me very nice. Thanks for the invitation. I totally forgot about the pictures. Keep it, friends. Wish you guys good lucks. STPM 4 flat. I'm waiting to hear good news from you guys.

Two days ago, i took care of my grandma in Hospital Besar Machang. She has been hospitalized for 3 days. Doctor said she might can go back today morning. Stay healthy, Grandma.

This long holiday, although i didn't have any vacations, i felt grateful as i discovered family love. I feel it. My parents always give me moral supports. For instance, for the sake of my TOEFL examination, they took a leave to send me back to KL. My parents have taken a lot of holidays just because of me. I feel guilty sometimes.

Next semester, just have 1 week CNY's holiday which is also my mid-term break. I am going to miss my parents' cooks and "the silence of the night".

Thinking of CNY, i haven't settled my transportation to KLIA. My flight is the earliest in the morning. Haven't thought about it.

SAT, 13 Feb, 2010, 7.50 a.m.

I have to arrive KLIA at least before 6.30 a.m. That's also meant i have to depart from AKASIA at least before 6.00a.m.

How?

Wat Bangset/Uttamaram 11/12/2009-18/12/2009

2009-12-19T18:14:00.002+08:00

My mum helped me to shave my eyebrow.

First moment after my eyebrow was shaved.

The highest ranked monk helped me to cut my hair.

The moment when we were hearing to a talk

"Sia Bat"... Just a practice during "Hari Buddha". Usually 3 spoon of Rice were put into one "plate of monk"

After "sia bat", the monks took the food first. Then, "mek ci" took the food. After that, we ate there inside the main hall or vihra.

If there were not "Hari Buddha" or special occassion, there would not be "sia bat". This was where we eat.

The day when parents came to "allow" their children to become monks and "mek ci".

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I chose to be there because I would like to discover myself. However, I failed. Instead, I found out lots of “secrets” and “hidden” reasons people chose to be there. Initially, I thought everyone who was there was going there willingly. I was wrong. Some of them told me they were there to learn and have fun. Some told me some of their friends were there because of their friends were there. Some of them were forced by their parents. Some of them were there to “ka bung” (something to do after promised to the “Buddha”. Maybe they had successfully overcome some failures, setbacks or sickness. Some of them were there to fulfill their spare time. This program was fully organized and sponsored by “Than Bhun”.

I chose to go back earlier because I could not stand anymore. The routine was ordinary and dull. I was upset. The talks were not for me. The talks were mostly in “Thai”. Although I laughed and seemed to have fun there, but the truth was I wasn’t.

11^th Dec 2009(Friday)

I arrived Wat Bangset with a thought that I wanted to stay until the final day. I made a lot of mistakes that day because the instruction was given in “Thai”. Although my friends did translate to me, I did not understand them clearly. First, we changed to “all-white” attire. After the chanting, parents helped their child to shave the eyebrow. For boys, monks helped them to shave their hairs. After that, chanting was conducted again. Before that ceremony, we went to our room. We slept together with our friends. We didn’t practice “anta sila” that day. Thus, we were allowed to eat dinner.

12^th Dec 2009 – 17^th Dec 2009

We practiced “anta-sila”. We ate twice per day.

The routine:

5.30 a.m. > Wake up

6.00 a.m. > Morning Chanting and Meditation

7.00 a.m. > Dharma Walk

8.00 a.m. > Breakfast and Rest

9.30 a.m. > Talk

11.30 a.m. > Lunch and Rest

1.30 p.m. > Talk

4.30 p.m. > Rest

7.30 p.m. > Evening chanting and Talk

9.00 p.m. > Back to room

10.00 p.m. > Sleep Time

*During rest time, most of us chose to sleep or do laundry. However, there were some of hardworking elderly who chose to clean the WAT.

The routine was almost the same every day.

18^th Dec 2009 (Friday)

I went to morning chanting as usual. After the breakfast, I went to “Than Bhun” there. There were 3 people including me who were going back that day. He asked us the reasons. I told him that I had some university application to do and it was pointless for me to be there if I didn’t know “Thai”. He gave each of us RM20 and one “prak”(something to wear with a necklace). Thanks for RM20. The “prak”, I always curious why should I wear it. I didn’t wear it for a long time. Many said it protects us.

After that, we went to Vihra to read “pasca sila”. That day we could eat dinner. After that, my parents arrived, I put my stuff into the car and changed to casual attire. I followed my mum to the kitchen. My mum had cooked something. We put the food on the table. We waited for the time for the monks and mek ci to eat. My aunt, uncle and their daughters came too. They were there to visit me. I took pictures with my friends. We ate lunch after the monks finished eating. After that, we went back to grandma’s house together.

THE END

Journey to Self understanding

2009-12-10T02:57:00.000+08:00

George Bernard Shaw said: "Life isn't about finding yourself. Life is about creating yourself."

12 Days

11 Dec to 23 Dec 2009

"Unaccessible"

My not-so-interesting TOEFL story

2009-12-08T05:17:00.000+08:00

"It was not high. It was not low. It was mediocre. It was not enough for 1. However, it was enough for other 4. Thanks."
This is the answer i gave to whoever asked me "how was your TOEFL?"

1 is referred to Wisconsin.
"International students entering the College of Engineering must have met the Communications "A" requirement. If you are transferring from outside the U.S., you must have a TOEFL score of 250 or more."

4 is referred to Purdue, Stevens, OSU and UMD.

I scored 94/120 for my second attempt. I was grateful with that results.
28/30 for reading, 27/30 for listening, 17/30 for speaking, 22/30 for writing.
My first attempt's score was 79/120.
20/30 for reading, 23/30 for listening, 14/30 for speaking, 22/30 for writing.

Still, i scored bad in my speaking sections.

Still, i maintained my writing mark. I maintained the trends. I wonder why.
My Q1 was KO.
My Q2 was okay.
It was totally opposite from others. Many scored better for Q1 than Q2. I wonder why.
I am curious where i did wrong. I asked my friends.
One of the interesting reply was "You are different."
Is that right?

I did exercises for reading and listening. After the test, i thought it was more difficult than the first attempt in September. However, i scored pretty well for both sections. Thanks.

I won't repeat my TOEFL anymore. I will let the luck to play its role. As for now, i pass all Universities TOEFL requirement except for University of Wisconsin-Madison. I repeated it was also because of Uwisc. Now, let's luck plays its role.

Congratulations to those scored well. While for those who did not score well, believe me you will score well in your next attempts. Best of lucks to those who plan to retake. Best of lucks also to those who have already satisfied with their excellent results.

My TOEFL story has come to the end. Thanks for reading.

I have to SHAVE my eyebrow.

2009-12-05T22:27:00.000+08:00

Yea, i'm going to stay in a temple for 11 days.
I am not going to shave my hair but i am going to shave my eyebrow.
It's just a common tradition here.
It is better for a Buddhist to stay in a temple by practicing 8 laws before reaching 20.
Besides deepening my understanding towards Buddhism, i can understand myself better.
Learning how to survive without entertainment is one of the greatness things i am going to learn there.
Despite i still have 5 essays to go, my plan is easier said than done.
If i failed to finish all by 10 Dec, i would continue it after i come back to TM.
No hp is allowed, No pc is allowed..
So, it is going to be a very strict camp.
I willing to join this camp is because i really want to understand myself deeper. Besides, i hope my karma earned can benefit my friends and family members. Bring more lucks to them.
By receiving the facts i am going to USA next year, it is the only chance for me to do deepen Buddhism.
So, no one can "access" me for 11 days.. No need to try.
Remember, Siew La is "unaccessible" for 11 Days..

7 Essays 1 Done 1 Pending 5 Blank

2009-12-02T07:57:00.001+08:00

Can i keep my own's word?

Lazy to blog.

Really have to settle my university application stuff as soon as possible.

Taekwondo T-Shirt design-I haven't started. I got a new Logo from Amirul. Ppl have done their jobs. I haven't started.

=.=

7 essays 0 done

2009-11-25T21:12:00.000+08:00

The Wisconsin's deadline is approaching but i haven't settled my essays. I have done other parts of the application.
Done with everything except my essays.

Why writing isn't as easy as blogging?

Time to ponder.

My aim for last semester was achieved. However, i am more worry about my next semester performance. There are literature and technical writing. These two courses might kill my CGPA. I want to maintain my gcpa above 3.5.

These few days, i keep thinking what to write for my essays, but the answer was a blank.

I went blank.

My life experiences aren't enough to enrich the community of the college.

My life experiences aren't specific as other applicants.

Undeniably, i became more worry about my essay because i have read my roommate's essay to wisconsin. It was superb. Perfect!

It might take years for me to produce such high quality essays.

I will start working on my essays again tomorrow after my mood is getting better.

A short Summary of 2009 (January till October)

2009-11-19T05:11:00.002+08:00

January-April--Spring Semester
-I have had a great semester with my fellow Landoverians
-I learned more about myself.
-Class trips made me realized a lot of things that i hadn't done before.
-Visit national library for the very first time.
-Learned about how to edit movie.
-Learned more about group works
-outings with friends.
-SAT for SAT 2 and received an ordinary results.(Jan/Feb)
-Subscribe celcom broadband (Jan-CNY)
-Confession about calculus test was easy (consequence-i didn't score well for calculus 1 final grade)
-Received the first C in INTEC( fortunately, it was just mid-term grade)
-Had had my first flight (end of the semester break)
-Joined tkd tournament (poomsae)
-had joined american indulgence weeks (forced myself to join for aap's marks)
-Ko-pln with madam eliza.
-Drama-ing with my ko-pln group members.

May-July--Summer Semester
-Took Calculus 2 with 3 lecturers-Mr.Ikhwan, Ms.Farah and Mr.Vincent
-Went swimming pool once.
-Outings with friends.
-Relay for life'09
-Charity Sale in Shah Alam Buddhist Building

July-Oct-- Fall Semester
-joined inpro and saf for chess
-joined concerto's team
-had the most 1 week holiday in one semester-due to H1N1
-Academic decline especially calculus.
-had 10 days trip to Kuching (during the mid-term break)
-had taken my toefl for the first time.
-had my first experience in the karaoke room
-outings with my friends.
-had mid-autumn festival celebration with the gangs
-the end of this semester.

Basically, that's how i spent my three semester. It seems ordinary this year as i said before this year i didn't join lots of activities like last year.

This year i have spent a lot of money and i did have a lot of outings with my friends.

In short, this year i seems to have done lots of non-beneficial things.

We have helped a lot of people celebrating their birthdays although i didn't like to celebrate birthday.

------------------------------------THE END------------------------------------

oRdINaRy LiFe

2009-11-18T03:31:00.002+08:00

I am an ordinary village girl. I grew up in a small village town, Temangan. I finished my preschool education at SRJK (C) Chung Hwa, Kelantan with an ordinary results. I spent my childhood mostly with my neighbors' children, they are about my ages but none of them are same age as me. Some are older than me while some are younger than me. The gap is about one to four years only. Now, most of them have their own lives and same of them have even married. We rarely contact with each other as we are having our own life.

After that, my family consists of my parents and my twin brother moved to Tanah Merah, 15 minutes away from my previous house, my grandma's house. I took my primary education at SRJK (C) Yuk Cheng. I was enrolled into M class while my brother was enrolled into K class. However, my parents appealed so that we were enrolled into the same class. Their appeal succeeded. Both of us were enrolled into M class. As first 2 year of primary didn't according to the abilities of the students, we were in the same class for 2 years. I didn't socialize well with my friends. Most of them had known each other before enrolling into the primary education because they were in the same class during preschool education.

Year 3 onward, i was in the first class which was S for Setia. However, i had always been nominated as the last scorer of the class. My classmates laughed at me. I felt ashamed. I didn't score well for every single subjects except for mathematics. I didn't go for tuition. Most of my classmates did because they are rich. My family couldn't afford the tuition fees that time. My parents taught us Malay language during the night. However, this activities was fading away. Year 1 to year 2, my brother and I was in nursery center as both of our parents were working. Year 3 onward, we stayed at home alone. Year 5 onward, we went to school by ourselves. I cycled to school. I didn't befriend a lot of people. I was an anti-social person. During primary school, i started to socialize when i was in year 5. Although it was a starting point, i am glad our friendship remains until today.

During primary education, i joined ping pong and chess. Besides, i was quite active for track and field. Although i always lost, i learned a lot about friendships. Most of my classmates are rich, they have a good background and i was the only one who can't socialize well with them. Thus, i befriend with other classes students. I realized that i was same as them, i shouldn't be enrolled into the first class. It made my life miserable. My misconception towards my classmates made our relationship worse. They didn't care about existence and i didn't care about their presence.

Year 6, we all were facing UPSR. Although i was in the first class, the teachers didn't put high target on me. They target me to score 1A6B. I managed to score 3A3B1C. That results was considered okay for me during that time as i was just an ordinary student.. As conclusion, my primary education was dull and ordinary. I didn't have much achievements except for scoring 100 for my mathematics which was quite ordinary nowadays.

Year 2003, i enrolled into Form 1. With my ordinary results, i was enrolled into the fifth class out of 13 classes. I was in another school named SMK Dato Mahmud Paduka Raja (1). Form 1, i was still alone. I was sitting at the back as i couldn't manage to get a place in front. I guess before i was mad with my neighbor which made us separated our table. However, my relationship with others were getting better. Some felt pity for the unfair treatment by my classmates. I was not sure how i survive in form 1, i knew i managed to be number 1 in the class, however, this made my classmates hated me more. Form 1 was really a remarkable and an embarrassing episode of my life. This time i started to go for tuition. Although it's much as others did, i thought it was enough. I started to have friends. However, whether they were true friends or not, that's out of my prediction.

Year 2004, i was in form 2, I began to befriend other but still i was unbearable with my brother attitude, he started to skip classes, play truant, and even fought with other students. I was called to meet the counselor to settle my twin brother's things. The story never ended like that, i had to call parents and explain everything to them which sometimes i wished i could go back to class and continue the lecture. My form 2 life was a quite challenging life as i had to start settling my brother misconducts and settling my academic stuff. My results was jumped from 3A in form 1 to 5A in form 2.

Year 2005, PMR year, this year i still had to settle my brother stuff in addition to my academic stuff. I was focusing more on my studies and i managed to score 7A throughout the year. I did join clubs and societies but i was just an inactive member as most of my friends did. I am proud to be part of SPN1 family as most of us score 7A, for the chinese students. Thanks. Although there were quarrels amongst throughout those three years, there are none except strengthen our friendships. Besides, my friendship with other classes students were getting better except with those in the first class. Yeah, i did want to score better than them. However, my friendship with the Malays were good although some of them were in the first class.

After PMR, i was working in the sundry shop together with my friends. I was working as a cashier. I think about 1.5 months. The experience i gained was worth.

Maybe my attitude and my behavior towards studies let people think that i was dominating. With my excellent results (for my school, 7 A in PMR is excellent enough), i managed to enter the first class of science stream. Starting year 2006, i started to socialize more. Initially, i had mind to change to accounting stream but the teachers didn't allow met to do so. At last, i just took extra subject for my spm. At first, i was almost given up my chinese language. However, i am glad i didn't do so because i managed to score A2 for it. Form 4 and form 5 were the most exciting years for me during my secondary education. Although there were some quarrels, i still think that it was a remarkable quarrel. Form 4, i didn't really study much but others said i did. I started to socialize and thanks to my friends for letting me to become part of the family of chinese language society. I learned about organization and i learned how it worked. Besides, we conducted camps and activities.

Moreover, i started to prove myself by writing essay in bm and managed to win a prize for it. I joined ping pong which i won without competitors. I joined taekwondo which i almost gave up. I joined chess until state level. I joined quizzes by representing schools. Although i didn't have much achievements like others did, i am proud with myself. There were a lot of things happened during my high school year. There were many "first" things i did like drinking liquors which didn't taste nice at all, gambling which i didn't get addicted, countdown party which i learned about cooking, mentoring my friends which i thought it was useless, camping with friends which created memories, etc.

During the holiday after form 4, i stayed a week at Buddhist temple or "WAT" with my friends. I learned more about Buddhism.

My life during form 4 and form 5 were more colorful.

After finishing SPM, my life started to change dramatically.

I have blogged after my life after SPM and thus i won't want to blog about it again.

My friends coverage area is getting smaller and smaller. My friends who are still contacting me are decreasing. To those who are still keeping in touch with me, thanks a lot. I hope i won't forget you all forever. Thanks, friends.

I'm sorry!

2009-11-17T17:58:00.005+08:00

As i expected, i didn't score well.

However, i still want to say thank you to those have never ever given up on me although i was almost giving up during last semester.

Physics 1,

I don't want to elaborate more as i have elaborated it in my previous post.

"The highest prediction for the final Grade: A+

I just say it...
But i just aim A as i have no time to study it...
Hopefully, i won't screw it up..
Wish me luck!
I score almost full mark for all my tests and quizzes, so i didn't worry about my final that much...
Well, it isn't me alone who is scoring almost full mark for all tests and quizzes, there are a quite of number of students who managed to score so for physics. Thus, please don't assume that i'm an expert in physics. I damn noob in physics.."

I failed to get A+ as i didn't do well during my final.

Thanks for giving me A, Ms. Raebah Adam.

CALCULUS III

I really predicted A- for it as i knew it's kind of impossible for me to score A as i screwed up my first 3 tests out of 4 tests. Thanks, Madam Ruzela.

Introduction to Civilization

Well, for this subject, i knew i screwed up my final paper as i really dunno what i had studied. I simply wrote out the points. Thanks God, I still managed to score B+ although i was unhappy with my results.

Chemistry 2

As i expected, i would never ever score well for Chemistry. However, i feel grateful with my chemistry 2 results.

Maybe for others my results are not that excellent as that semester was the must-score semester like some of them manage to score 4-flat.

It will always be a dream of me.

I feel grateful for what i got.

I'm sorry was said to my beloved parents. My mum was here just now and she was shocked with my calculus 3 results. She said "Your math is your strength, your outstanding ability, why you didn't score A for it?" i gave her a lot of accuses like i screwed up my first 3 tests, i managed to score A-, it was good already. Accuses are always accuses. In reality, i didn't work hard. My mum knew that. For my chemistry, she didn't say much as she knew i would say my chemistry was always like that. For physics, she was shocked, i told her my physics was always like that. Thanks god, she didn't say "perasan diri".

That's my mum. She always try her best to understand my academic stuffs but most of the time, i made her confused. That's my intention. I don't want them to worry too much about me.

Looking for for the new semester although i am going to hate that semester.

2nd INTEC CLOSED & INVITATIONAL TAEKWONDO CHAMPIONSHIP

2009-11-17T00:38:00.004+08:00

Initially, this tournament is planned to be conducted in January 2010. However, due to the dates selected are the same as another college tournament. It is postponed to March 2010. Exact dates haven't been selected. I am just a small committee number of this tournament, thus i didn't know what is happening actually.

My job is as a "designer" of this tournament. I haven't started to do my job. I will do to finish it before the new semester.

I can't promise my team to get the volunteers in March 2010 as i knew ADFP and ACTP are busy during that period.

To whomever might be interested:

If you were willing to be part of the "Family" of this tournament, please inform me as soon as possible. We need at least 50 volunteers from all programs in INTEC.

As volunteers, you will be given free T-shirts, certificate and food.

I just received sms from Faris, he asked me to do the following design:

1) T-shirt

2) Banner

3) Medal

4) ETC

I will try to master Photoshop and i hope i really can finish it before new semester starts. I don't want to affect my studies.

To those are really interested to become the volunteers, please ask me for the further details. I really hope you guys can join it. Thanks.

Happy Holidays.

TOEFL

2009-11-14T21:15:00.003+08:00

TOEFL is haunting me now.
I haven't started practising it.
I don't know when and where to start.

First attempt, i just scored 79/120. I won't feel ashame for admitting my score. It was a terrible score for USA bound scholars including myself. Although PSD didn't set any requirement regarding toefl, i still have to score higher than 79.

I am applying to Wisconsin Madison which its toefl requirement is above 100 for engineering students.

I am applying to Purdue which its toefl requiremnt is above 88 for engineering students.

I am applying to Stevens which its toefl requirement is above 79.

Ohio State and Maryland are the Universities which i hope i get but i am no need to go there.

I want to go to Wisconsin or Purdue or Stevens.

Either one is good enough for me.

For others, above three uni are their safe schools. For me, they aren't because my toefl keep playing with me.

TOEFL, let me pass 100 this coming saturday. i am begging you. Please...

It's kinda of impossible to score higher if i kept doing nothing.

I have a big communication problem.

Communication skill is the skill i am searching for right now. I know it's hard to master this skill. I need it. I admire who can talk spontaneously in english without any doubts and stops.

FULL STOP

My universities Admission Essays

2009-11-10T20:03:00.002+08:00

Admission Essays:

University of Wisconsin-Madison
1. The University of Wisconsin values an educational environment that provides all members of the campus community with opportunities to grow and develop intellectually, personally, culturally, and socially. In order to give us a more complete picture of you as an individual, please tell us about the particular life experiences, perspectives, talents, commitments and/or interests you will bring to our campus. In other words, how will your presence enrich our community?
2. If there is additional information you would like us to consider in reviewing your application, please share this with us as well. This is your opportunity to tell us things about yourself that have not been asked elsewhere if you believe they will help us become acquainted with you in ways different from courses, grades, and test scores.
Purdue University
(Either one)
1. Describe how your college education will allow you to achieve your personal or professional goals.
2. What is the best advice you have ever received? Describe how it has helped you and how you have used it.
3. If you had a second chance -- the opportunity to do something over and do it differently -- what would you choose to do over and what changes would you make?
(Optional)
1. Additional information (If necessary, use this space to provide additional detail about your background or academic criteria -- information the Admissions Committee may find helpful during the review of your application.)
Ohio State
1. Why are you considering The Ohio State University?
Stevens Institute of Technology
1. Personal Statement -Tell more about yourself. For example, a talent, fact, experience or thought that is not on the application.
University of Maryland
1. An essay describing your past academic experiences and your reasons for wishing to transfer to Maryland at this point in your academic career is required. Students who have been out of school for several years, or who have a personal circumstance that affected their academic performance, may wish to address that situation in their essay. Your essay should be no more than 300 words.

Time to update about my current ordinary life...

2009-11-07T19:07:00.004+08:00

Fall 2008
Spring 2009
Summer 2009
Fall 2009

4 semesters have gone..
2 more semesters to go..

This year i did nothing beneficially..
Thus, i can't really write a short summary of the year.
I can't really remember when i did things.
I knew that i have had my first flight this year.
So what? Times come and go... It is just a matter of time.
This year is the year of nothing except for "academic failure".
This year i seems to be lazier and lazier.
Too much things i have to ponder about.
Now, i realise that i didn't have to worry about them actually. They were wasting my time. Yeah, they did.
Time can't be reversed.
What i can do now is keep moving.

This year i would like to write down list to do for 2010. Year of possibilities. Not today but at the end of the year. Less than 2 months, 2010 will come to reality.

Next year, i will have a new personalities. I always say that but it never happen. I really hope this will be real soon.

University application is my concern now.

However, toefl comes first in the list of my concern...

I haven't started anything beneficial since i am back to kelantan. I just watched prison break, facebooked, msned, etc.

It's time to start TOEFL. It's time to say goodbye to the visual world.

It's time to move on.

Oh ya. The flood will hit my neighborhood soon. I hope it won't happen. I hate flood. It brings a lot of inconveniences. Besides, i want to sit for my toefl this coming 21 November.

1st November

2009-11-01T06:01:00.002+08:00

1. Purdue University
University of Wisconsin-Madison
2. Stevens Institute of Technology
3. Ohio State University
4. University of Maryland

Above are the universities that i am going to apply.
The list is finalized. No more changes are allowed.

The journey begins

2009-10-28T13:44:00.002+08:00

The journey to my real university life is going to begin.

The fall 2009 is just over.

This indicates i have to start to do a lot of things.

University application is the most important thing to start.

However, TOEFL comes first in the list to do~

Final Examination is GOING ON.....

2009-10-25T00:40:00.006+08:00

24th October 2009
8.35a.m. to 10.35a.m
CTES 30 Introduction to Civilization
The highest prediction for the final Grade: B+
Presentation 9.5/10
AAP: 9/10
Test: 18/20
Assignment: 18/20
Final Exam: 3?/40 (Hopefully)
AIM: B+

(I sat for the final exam yesterday morning, i felt that i screwed it up because i didn't remember the points for the essay which was 20 percent of the final grade.) Bye, bye!

26th October 2009
CALCULUS III
The highest prediction for the final Grade: A-
Tests: 34.8/40
Test 4 helps me a lot as i scored 97/100 for it... Thanks, TEST 4
In order to get A for final grade, i have to score 97/100 for my final exam which is kinda of impossible.
So, i predict that i will score B or B+ or A- for my calculus 3.

27th October 2009
PHYSICS I
The highest prediction for the final Grade: A+
I just say it...
But i just aim A as i have no time to study it...
Hopefully, i would screw it up..
Wish me luck!
I score almost full mark for all my tests and quizzes, so i didn't worry about my final that much...
Well, it isn't me alone who is scoring almost full mark for all tests and quizzes, there are a quite of number of students who managed to score so for physics. Thus, please don't assume that i'm an expert in physics. I damn noob in physics..

28th October 2009
CHEMISTRY II
The highest prediction for the final Grade: B
Test 1: 20/27
Test 2: 24/27
Test Percentage: 28.5/35
Assignments: 14.2/15
Quizzes: 13/15 (Not so sure)
AAP: 3.5/5 (just predict so)
Percentage lost: 10.8%

Final Examination: 30%
I am damn noob for chemistry...
So, i predict the highest i could score for chem final is 40/50 which is 24/30~

So, the total percentage lost is 16.8 percent which will give me a B (3.00) for my chemistry II...

Chemistry 2 Lab
The highest prediction for the final Grade: A-
(Hopefully, i manage to get at least B+ for this one credit hour course)

Prediction:

Lowest GPA: 3.28
GCPA: 3.44

Highest GPA:3.57
GCPA: 3.50

JUST HOPE FOR THE BEST
PREPARE FOR THE WORST

GAMBATEH!

Good luck for those are sitting for the final too..

Aka Aka Fighting...

I am damn worry i don't get what i hope for... (*-*)

THE END OF CALCULUS WORLD

2009-10-15T13:25:00.002+08:00

I’m FRUSTRATED!!!

Calculus 3
Test 1: 68/100
Totally believed that I was lazy.
Test 2: 78/100
Partially believed that I was lazy and partially believed that I was stupid
Test 3: 82/100
Now, I totally believe that I am stupid.

Test 4: How much? Who cares?
No more A+, A and even A-. Maybe no more B+.
Who knows?

Siew La is getting first C for her math-related subject.

Calculus isn’t my world anymore!

I don’t want to give any accuses to console myself anymore.

THE END OF CALCULUS WORLD.

Next week
CALCULUS TEST 4
CHEMISTRY TEST 2

Next two week
FINAL

Shut Down

2009-09-03T01:43:00.003+08:00

Reduce the online activities due to:-

Traumatized Chemistry Test 1 Mark: 20/27 - 17.5 % of final grade... Lost 5 % dy!
Calculus->> First C or D ever! for my mid-term grade!

My chemistry mid-term grade-84--> B- or C+?
My calculus mid-term grade *(worst test, worst quizzes)--> 70 or less? C or D?

Whatever!

Calculus Test 2 is looming large... exactly 12 hours from now!

I am going to sleep.

Hereby, i officially announce that my blog won't be updated anymore until the end of this semester!

Gonna to concentrate on studies!

Kuching 21st till 31st August

2009-08-31T05:33:00.003+08:00

Unfortunately, i didn't jot down my activities day by day...

However, i could remember vividly what i have done and learnt from the trip!...

Holiday is going to end soon.

Today, about 2 p.m, i will fly back to peninsular of Malaysia.

Besides having fun here-Kuching, i have learned a lot of differences between west and east of Malaysia. (Lazy to elaborate)

Thanks to Beverly's family for letting me to stay in their house for more than 1 week.

Thanks for feeding me as well.

Sarawak laksa, belacan bihun, ikan bakar, kiaw(wantan), sio bi, etc....

Thanks for Bev's mum home cooked meals as well.

Thanks for letting to feel i am actually in my own house's as well.

Thanks for giving me privacy as well.

Thanks for everything.

Although we didn't do a lot of outings as expected, i have had fun.

(P/s: At least i have had time to finish my assignment like Chemistry lab reports and Chemistry batteries research paper.)

Well, i didn't touch calculus at all. No mood and i didn't know how to do it!

--The weather, the food, the environment, the style--

I lazy to post about what kuching would offer you when you're here.

I just want to say one statement: Come here, it will reveal the truth! Good or bad-it's subjective.

For me, it's an eye opener for me. This is because it's quite different from what i expected.

Frankly speaking, i didn't buy any souvenirs as there were nothing capturing my eyes and my pockets. Those souvenirs were very common things like key chains, pens and etc... We could find those kinds of souvenirs everywhere we visited.

Enjoy the scenery, enjoy the air, enjoy everything while i am still here.

Going to say goodbye soon to kuching.

Will i come here again?

Pictures=go to my facebook and explore it!

My Future

2009-08-29T03:52:00.003+08:00

These few days i was thinking too much about my future. TOO MUCH!
Since primary, i have to settle all my academic stuffs by myself.
I have to make decisions by myself.
what course, where to study, what to study, what time to study...
My dad and mum have never given any comments about it.
Frankly speaking, my family doesn't really go into academic stuff.
What i have achieved today is what i wanted to achieve.
None of them are my family's hope.
They did hope i could perform well in academic but they didn't expect me to score 12As' in SPM. They didn't expect to further my studies overseas.

Am i too ambitious? Am i?

About my future, i asked my parents' opinions, they said they couldn't decide for me as they didn't know anything about engineering. My mum said she just knew what an accountant is. She said if i wanted to be accountant, she would be the first one to disagree with that.

My future is an engineer. What is an engineer? My parents know nothing about it. I have to make the decision by my own self.

They give me financial support and moral support but not helping me to make any decisions.

By the way, thanks.

I dare to say that i have wasted a lot of your hard-earned money. It has never come to the end. I have to waste your money again for the sake of my future to apply universities.

Although my parents not rich enough to send me off to overseas, they always say don't worry about money, just use it wisely. Their words make me feel guilty, i know what they do to earn money. I know they are working days and nights to feed the whole family's members. My mum is doing part time after the office hours. My dad is working overtime. Why? To earn extra money to let me enjoy my life here.

Today, i have confessed about my real family situation. I blog about this is not to let my readers to feel pity for me. I just to let you guys know how i am here today and why i am still here to discover my future.

A lot of things i have to think of nowadays.

5 days have gone... 5 days to go.... But, i haven't done a thing...

2009-08-25T15:05:00.002+08:00

My laziness towards study is getting worse day by day.

I just started to do my homework today.

I haven't touched calculus and physics which the tests are just around the corner.

CALCULUS
Lots to study
Lots to do
Lots of fun?
Wait and see...
Lots to score?
Hopefully, i could score much much better than demotivated test 1.

To-do Lists! (Mid-term Break)

2009-08-19T18:50:00.004+08:00

To-do Lists! (Mid-term Break)
Calculus III
-Study, Practice, Redo…
-3rd Sept 2009-test 2
Chapter 13 Vector-Valued Function
Chapter 14 Partial Derivatives
(Focus more on this chapter-Test 2)-I must score it.
-Presentation (Group) – Illustrations of concepts in partial derivatives, directional derivatives, and Tangent Planes.
-Maple Assignment (Group)

Statistics for Calculus
Quiz 1 15/20
Quiz 2 17/20
Quiz 3 19/20
Quiz 4 14/20
Quiz 5 18/20
Assignment 1 20/20
Assignment 2 16/20
Assignment 3 15/20
Assignment 4 16/20
Test 1 70/100

Physics 1
-Just simply study for the coming tests and quizzes.
-2nd September: Mid-term Exam... Good Luck...
Quiz Chapter 1 Supposedly KO
Quiz Chapter 2 Supposedly OK

Introduction to Civilization
-Study for the test… Score it!

Chemistry 2
-Silicon Presentation-Physical Properties (Do the slide-power point)
-Battery Research Paper
-Study for coming quizzes (just simply read because the test 1 was just over)
-Lab report 2 (Rate of Reaction)

Test 1 (Chapter 13, 16, 17) “--/27” (Speechless) – 19 August 2009

*TOEFL
-Practices makes prefect

秀乐爱上中文！

2009-08-18T03:48:00.003+08:00

世上无难事，只怕有心人! 虽然这 “Proverb” 很普遍，我始终都很欣赏 “它” 的 “永不可能办到及了解的 "meaning" 。我的华文一天比一天 ”厉害”。我本人很怀疑自己如何得到如此的成绩-A2 SPM。

如果我有机会返回到过去，我不会选择这条乱腾的前途！我现在很烦恼，不知如何是好！救命！

为何大家都那么努力？秀乐，努力点吧！为乐而奉！

方向？那个是十全十美的？选择？怎样才是百分百真切的？人生？如何才是幸福快乐的？秀乐，你何时才能找到你心中想要的？

Random post.... {ignore it}

2009-08-14T20:49:00.003+08:00

My laptop was not with me since 7 Aug. Before i went to Intec for the talk, i went to the shop and took back my laptop. Windows Vista... Oh no! I hate it!

I need it in rush. Thus, i didn't have the time to wait for the "damn-slow" technician to re-format my laptop with Windows XP.

I installed the language bar and my audio system after i took back my laptop. THEY DUNNO how to install those program.. I guess they were lazy.

WHATEVER!

I don't want to format my laptop anymore.

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ACADEMIC..
Haiz
Haiz
Haiz
Calculus 3 die
Quizzes and Tests--->>ALL screwed up!
Damn it...
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Chem and physics...
SPEECHLESS.... just wait and see...
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Toefl
26 september... Wish me good luck!
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University Application
3 uni through ossp..
I guess i will let them to apply uiuc, wisconsin madison and lehigh.

will i apply more?
definitely!

But which uni?
DUNNO yet.. Umich is banned by JPA... I want to go there...
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I am frustrated!
I am depressed!
I am emo-ing!

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Haiz.... Speechless!... Emo-ing.... .

2009-08-10T00:28:00.002+08:00

Calculus Test this coming thursday!

2009-08-05T00:14:00.003+08:00

I screwed up my first and second quizzes of calculus.
First Quiz: 15/20
Second Quiz: 17/20 (It was an open-book quiz) Most of the students scored 20/20. What had i done? Copied wrong formula.

I HAVEN'T PREPARED MENTALLY!

I am lazy to do the exercises.

THE END

Say Goodbye to TM again!

2009-08-01T14:48:00.005+08:00

What is this? Pre-calculus!

I have to bring back my pre-calculus file. Just lend to junior! I "sayang" it so much!

I want it back in proper arrangement!

What is this?

Oh... Table Tennis Net...

Haha... It's not mine... I just helped someone to buy it.... RM 55! Dunno it is considered cheap or expensive! Good Luck for those are playing for SAF and KARISMA!

How about this? Is that me?

Yupe, it's my stuff~.

Of course, it is not new stuff. The racket is old stuff but the shuttlecocks are all new... It costed me RM 30!

How about this?

Kelantan FOOD...

Those are the things i will bring back tomorrow...

What's more?

OMG

1 Chemistry textbook

1 Physics textbook

1 calculus textbook

1 laptop!

What's else?

No clothes!

Thanks...

How am i going to carry all those things?

TOEFL oh TOEFL

2009-08-01T00:44:00.001+08:00

It's not your time!

Light Green=Green Light

2009-07-29T21:21:00.001+08:00

Now, my favorite color is light green instead of pink!
NO more pink!.....

Holiday means nothing to ME!

2009-07-28T21:08:00.001+08:00

25th July ( Saturday)
I came back from Mcdonald about 6.30a.m. (As you knew, the Akasia's gate will be only opened about that time)
I slept for the whole morning.
I woke up about 1.30p.m.
I went out to bought dvd.
After coming back to my room, i watched movies and did nothing.
About 7.00p.m., i ordered Domino's pizza. It cost me RM30. I ate alone.
I got a free voucher for a regular pizza because the pizza arrived late.
I watched movies again.
Well, i was in the house alone until 11p.m. Justina came to my room after she finished her church activity. She brought along her wimax. We both online. Basically, we just online. I had fallen asleep about 2.00a.m. (Finally)

26th July (Sunday)
I wake up about 12p.m. after receiving a msg from Justina.
We planned to go out to Sunway.
Yes, we did.
About 1p.m, we took the taxis and went to Sunway Piramid.
I brought along my luggage.
The taxi driver asked me wanted to go to Sunway Piramid or Sunway College.
HEHE!
The luggage i brought was for the journey back to Kelantan.
After arriving Sunway Piramid, the first destination was to put the luggage into the locker.
I bought 3 shirts 3 pants that day. I also bought a water bottle which costed me RM39. I dunno how much i spent that day. IT was almost RM300. I guess.
or MORE?
Well, the details of what had happened that day i won't elaborate here.
I spent RM50 on food and drinks.

About 6.45p.m, we took taxi to our own destination. Justina went back to Akasia (RM20.90). I went to KL sentral (RM17.00 plus RM1.60 toll fee).

I saw someone in KL sentral. I couldn't recognize him at first. He knew me. I knew him but i forgot his name. Finally, i recalled back his name. Sun Kiet, we went to Warong Kita while waiting for the train, 2030! We chatted about our current life. He had changed a lot. Frankly speaking, i didn't expect him to be so hardworking in studies now. Good luck! You can do it. Don't ever follow my brother's path although you are his best friend once.

27th July (Monday)

The train journey took about 14 hours.
I arrived TM about 10 in the morning.

After arriving home, i drove the car to my old school and took my SPM original certificate. I met Md. Zakiah who used to be my BM tuition teacher. I didn't know that she had transferred to my old school. Thanks for your teaching. OH ya, she is pregnant. Good Luck.

I met En. Rosli who used to be my Moral Education teacher. He is still teaching Moral although his strength is Economics. He loves economics but he can only teach one class. Good Luck, teacher, you can teach more classes next year. Besides, i recalled back my duty as the little teacher when he was away. He told his students that i used to be the teacher for moral when he was away. Hard to deny it although i dislike that role. I have been hatred by some of my classmates because of that. Don't ever give that role to any students. He/She would be hatred by his/her peers. Same age! No way!

Then, my car got problem. I called my brother to fix it. Finally, it worked again. I ate lunch together with Ai Cing and Phey Yoong. They are very busy! STPM this year. STPM! good luck...

I hope to meet more tm-ians. I hear a lot of romance stories amongst my friends. However, i didn't hear from them directly.

ROMANCE stories of myself_psl, when? I will tell you it will not happen before miracle happens! THE DEATH OF ALL GIRLS! Just kidding!

Basically, that's what i had done that day.

28th July (Tuesday)
DONE nothing
Woke up late
Did physics lab reports only!

H1N1.... Damn you but thank you!

2009-07-25T16:00:00.001+08:00

Lazy to post about Sunway Piramid outing.

Just to say one thing:

I was still been considered as a CHILD!

I paid for the children price!

Holiday soon.

Going back to TM.

I bought movies. RM33--ALL
I know i will feel boring staying in the house alone...

Movies...

Tired!

Going back by train tomorrow night!

Happy Birthday to Siu Ching!

2009-07-24T02:13:00.002+08:00

Before i talk about Justina's Birthday, i would like to say sorry to anyone who i had celebrated your birthday without posting it on my blog especially to my roomate, Beverly.
I didn't have the photo. Kinda of busy preparing for your surprise birthday party.
Besides, no present from me! ^-^

Kinda of dunno what you needed and kinda of busy that time. All are just accuses...

Now, i am quite free and my brain still works well. Thus, i bought something that she might like! Hope she like it! Present is just a present. IT didn't indicate anything. As long as the giver was sincere, then it indicated the giver appreciated the relationship between them-the receiver and the giver.

For the coming birthday, who? sundrina! hopefully, you will get what you want and hopefully, we can think of something out of the box like we did today. After seeing the below photos, my blog readers will think that it was freaking cool! COOL!

Week 3 of lecture has come to the end!

2009-07-23T13:26:00.001+08:00

I just finished my calculus quiz 2...

Fortunately, it was an open book quiz. However, please don't think it was as easy as ABC.

Hopefully, i answered all questions correctly.

I'm going to KL with INTEC bus soon...

I will post about it whenever i arrived the polluted city.

I studied so hard yesterday night, but....

2009-07-22T17:12:00.001+08:00

The physics quiz 1 was postponed to next week.

The chemistry quiz 1 was okay.

The calculus lecture was okay.

The CTES lecture was kinda of fun. The next groups have to use BM to present instead of English.
Wakaka...... Good luck, guys!

Tomorrow, i will have Calculus quiz 2, hopefully, i won't screw it up.

First assignment We got full mark... Maritha and I. Thanks...

However, the next assignment, i will be in the same group as Kaneson and Khairil... Hopefully, they are very committed group members...

I screwed up my Calculus quiz 1.... 9 to go!

2009-07-21T13:04:00.001+08:00

Hopefully, i will do well in quiz 2 this coming Thursday.

Why didn't I score well in quiz 1?

I didn't understand the concept.

I didn't know how to apply the formula.

I was confused with the formula.

In short, I didn't study for it!

Well done, Siew La.

Please study... You are not going to screw up your calculus 3 like you did for your calculus 1.

Tomorrow, i will have 2 quizzes, physics and chemistry.

Try to score!

Physics first lab will be conducted today.

Good luck...

What have I done so far?

2009-07-20T03:11:00.001+08:00

Fall 2009(First 2 weeks)
-Frisbee-Separuh Jalan-I stopped practise already.
-Concerto-Hangat-hangat tahi ayam-However, ACTP won!
-INPRO-Chess-ADFP/ACTP won!
-Japanese Cultural Exhibition-An eye-opener
-Outing-No!
-Peer Mentor Program-Speechless-My mentee is too "good". I guess i will never meet her again.
-Taekwondo- started with a dream, BLACK! however, i have missed a lot of training sessions and also grading sessions.
-Money-I spent a lot! I can't keep my promise to my parents and also myself.
-Physics, Chemistry 2, Calculus 3 and Intro to Civilization. In short, academics!-I didn't have the mood to study.
-Sleeping is still my number 1 hobby!
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20th July
Third week
-Chemistry Presentation's Draft dues
-Calculus Quiz 2
-Chemistry quiz Chapter 13
-Physics and Civilization-nothing!
-Justina's birthday surprise party, maybe!
-outing-maybe!
-Sleeping-for sure!
-Chess practice with Kugarn-depends-SAF 1st august!

Chess.... We are the Champion!

2009-07-19T01:02:00.001+08:00

Quoted from "Yee Wei".

Time to give my comments about yee wei.

Frankly speaking, i was not even noticed his existence in ADFP.

I guess i first noticed him in during our first physics lecture together.

I thought he was a very quiet person.

Time has revealed a lot of things.

Actually, he is a hyperactive person.

This has shown that "Don't judge a person by his/her face" is valid.

Okay, enough about YEE WEI.

Time to talk about my games.

Got improvements but still not that good.

Chess needs its players to be patient, i am not that kind of person.

I always rushed to check-mate.

Thus, i lost most of the games.

Take your time, Siew La

Others advised me!

THanks for all.

Sorry for all.

I will try my best for SAF.

Last year, INTEC got 2nd place for female chess category.

This year, with one national player, one state player from the juniors of other programs.. We will win. TRY to make it possible!

I tak wakil apa-apa pun! Haha...

We got 4 players from the juniors(other programs) for female category! all hebat-hebat...

Why the seniors of ADFP have to play?

ADFP girls, let's play chess...

We Won! Oops… Wrong… “My program won!”

2009-07-17T23:15:00.001+08:00

Sorry guys, I was not that committed.
Congratulations to my program for winning the Concerto.
“The Lion King”
The musical was just finished and I didn’t stay long to help to clean up the stuff. How bad I am. Instead of helping to clean up everything, I am here blogging.
I will upload the pictures I shot today whenever I am free.
Now, I am going to date with Mr. Chemistry 2.

Just one week....

2009-07-15T17:28:00.001+08:00

Why am i so tired?

Concerto? NO... I seldom went for the meetings.

Chess? NO... I didn't practise that much.

Frisbee? NO... I quitted already.

Ping Pong? NO... I made the decision earlier than they called me up... So, i didn't even go for the selection.

What else?

--Study--

NO... I am not that hardworking.

The combination of all made me tired. Can i take a rest?

Yes, i could if and only if i were going to screw up my calculus quiz 1 tomorrow.

Tonight, i will have another chess practice session with Kugarn.

Tomorrow, i will have to meet my mentee.
Whoever you are, don't expect too much from me.
I can guide you but in order to score A+ for your pre-calculus, it's you to determine your results.
IF i found out you were good enough in Math, i were going to "kill" you.
I just want to make things possible.
This is one of the job of the future engineers.

Here, it reminds me how hardworking i was for my pre-calculus during Fall 2008.

Now, I am lazy.

I want to take a nap first...

I pray to the God if he/she existed.

2009-07-11T23:47:00.001+08:00

I hope that someone will enter my life and guide me towards the correct path.

I am waiting for someone who know how to control me.

I am waiting for someone to show me the right path towards my future.

I am waiting for someone to make sure that I am on the right track.

Mr. Chemistry II
Mr. Calculus III
Mr. Physics I

and Mr. Civilization

This semester, you all are my valentines.

Mr. Civilization, i am going to present next week. However, i haven't finalized my scripts about you. You are too complicated. This semester, Mr. English is not accompanying me. I'm afraid of many things. TOEFL is looming large, Mr. English, please come back to my life. I need you to score in my TOEFL. I need your help for my coming presentation.
Mr. Civilization, i have asked my parents to post me my form 4 and form 5 history textbooks so that i can understand you better.

Mr. Chemistry II, why is the textbook about you so boring? I'm getting asleep easily. I want to get know you but the text limits my understanding. I'm going to find out some way to understand you deeper.

Mr. Calculus III, your "messenger" a.k.a my lecturer about you is quite okay. I hope i can learn a lot of things about you from her. I must fall in love with you because you will be my longest date in my life.... Calculus I till Calculus VII....

Mr. Physics I, are you a very simple guy? Not complicated stuff in your mind... I hope so...

I haven't done a thing.

My first Impression towards Fall 2009

2009-07-10T14:41:00.001+08:00

Basically, i have met all my fall 2009 semester lecturers.

Miss Raebah

Madam Nur Saidah

Miss Ruzela

Miss Siti R

Hopefully, i will have a perfect FALL semester...

FALL= FOUR

Four Subjects = Four Flat?

Is that possible?

Gambateh!

I'm going to study harder for this semester!

Play harder!

INPRO is looming large, i am definitely will play as the only chess female player of ADFP/ACTP.

Thanks Kugarn for willing to be my "sifu".

For Frisbee, i am not sure yet. If today was raining again, i definitely would quit from joining the frisbee game. I don't want to be sick again. I was sick after playing during the raining hours for 2 days.

For ping pong, Justina and pey suh told me that ADFP/ACTP is lacking of female players. I hope they won't beg me again because i'm seriously dunno how to play ping pong! Justina said she wants me to write down my name only so that they are qualified to join the game... Hopefully, more juniors will join the ping pong team. Let's me to retire...
Just kidding...
If they had not found new player, i would help them in term of "my name".

Sorry guys, i might make our program lost again this year... NO WAY..

Justina and Pey Suh and Yee Hoon, you all must win!!!

Gambateh!

ACTP/ADTP is the best!!!

For concerto, my present in the prop/crew team seems to be fade.. It's fading away.

Good luck, guys... Seriously, show the commitment amongst team members. We all were basically went there to "goyang kaki".

Gambateh...

8th July 2009 First Day of Fall 2009

2009-07-08T11:34:00.001+08:00

Today, i woke up about 7.00 a.m.
Then, Xin Rou and I woke to bus stop together as we were going to have the same lecture.
(7.30a.m.)
However, there were a lot of people lined up already. Estimated 500M or 0.5KM.

We had to wait for about half an hour before we got into the bus.
I guess it was about at least after 5 buses.

Unfortunately, i forgot to shot the photo.

After, we went to Lecture Hall for the physics class. However, we were forced to move to ALM block as they were going to use the Lecture Hall for ISO meeting.

ADFP block to ALM block...

We wanted to be the first to arrive there.

We managed to do so.

However, after arriving there, we realized that the classroom W109 was locked.

Then, we took a rest in the nearest room.

After a few minutes, the lecturer, Miss Raebah arrived.

The door was opened and I ran into it. Childish!

I sat in front of the class.

I am short and i like to sit in front so that i can concentrate during the lecture.

The physics class was started and Yu Chen a.k.a YC/ Penang Guy was selected as the class Representative for physics class of Delaware and Florida. Congratulations.

Basically, almost 80% of the syllabus we had learned it.

The book will cost each of us RM77.

Finished Chapter 1 today.

Our next destination was AUSMAT block, E105.

The CTES/Civilization of whatever lecturer was there when we arrived there.

She thought that she would be only taught a group of 10. However, we all the engineering jpa scholars here were there for her class. (non-bumi)

About 40 of us were there for that course.

We were divided into 11 groups for the assignments and presentations.

Xin Rou, KJ, YC and I were lucky number one.

We are going to present first next week.

Hopefully, we will finish it up as soon as possible.

All about civilization!

All about history!

After 11 a.m, my class today was over.

We went to AUSMAT cafe for breakfast plus lunch.

Then, i am here to blog!

Later, about 12p.m., we are going to have a group discussion for CTES.

Then, about 1.45p.m, I am going to Boston for Chess Selection. Hopefully, there are experts for female category so that I can retire for INPRO.

After that, i am going back to akasia to see my friends who are going to play ping pong for INPRO.

About 5.30p.m., i am going to the field and practise Frisbee again! hopefully, i can master front hand method today!

Gambateh!!!

Tonight, i will sleep earlier than before.

Money... Money... Money...

2009-07-06T21:53:00.001+08:00

Debit

RM200-From parents

RM165-From Books Selling-

Precalculus-RM25, SAT 1 college Board-RM35, SAT 2 Math 1 and 2-RM35, SAT 2 Physics-RM35, SAT 2 Chemistry-RM35.

Total-RM 365

Credit-RM 280-3rd till today... 4 days only...

What a big spender i was!!!

Taxi-Almost RM120 already for 4 days only...

RM 60-from LCCT to AKASIA... Then TESCO-Dunno how much-2 days-, just for the sake of my broadband!!! Taman Pertanian-RM10

"FOOD"-at least RM100

SAVE SAVE and SAVE...

Is that possible?

Celcom Broadband ROSAK

2009-07-05T17:06:00.002+08:00

Buy a new one or wait, wait and wait?

Any suggestions?

Super Clean

2009-07-05T14:50:00.001+08:00

Today, my roommate a.k.a Beverly and I cleanead our "house".

I just cleaned my stuffs and Kitchen.

However, Beverly cleaned and washed the toilet a.k.a bathroom and our bedroom.

Those are the pictures after the clearance...

P/s: I got RM130 for book sales... Precalculus, SAT1 and SAT2 books...

My Restaurant City

2009-07-01T00:32:00.001+08:00

I reached level 20 2 days ago.

I hacked to level 27, the highest level one day ago.

One hour before now, i hacked to negative point meant level 0.

Now, i can open it but it doesn't stand longer than 5 seconds.

Now, i can't play anymore.

My pray was answered.

Thanks god if you existed!

2009-06-30T00:42:00.002+08:00

28th June 2008, I started my journey as an ADFPian in INTEC.

26th June 2009, I ended one episode of my life entitled "ADFP".

Now, I'm thinking of what had i done during my foundation year.

Some told me that I was an anti-social person.

Some told me that I was cool.

Some told me that I was quite aggressive.

Some told me that I was creative.

Some told me that I was hardworking.

Some told me that I was lazy.

Those are some of the impressions i gave to my ADFP's friends.

Activities that i had joined:-

1) Space Tunnel (Fall 2008)- As a crew member of solar system.

2) Chess-INpro, Karisma, SAF (Fall 2008)

3) Ping Pong(INpro)-Quite a shame!-loser!-Fall 2008

4) Went to Dharma Talk throughout the Fall 2008

5) Charity(Orphanage) -IE club-Spring 2009

6) Dodgeball-another one-loser-Spring 2009

7) Halloween Night- as a crew member of Poison Apple's Booth

8) Charity Sales(Shah Alam Buddhist Society)-Summer 2009

9) Charity Walk(as a volunteer)-relay for life 09-Summer 2009

10) 52 hours non-stop public speaking

-as a speaker-Malaysia Book of Records-Summer 2009 (A bad speaker)

During November and December 2008

(Winter Holiday)

1) Danell Lee's mini concert-organized by YMM TM- as a committee member.

2) YMM national camp(Gopeng, Perak)- as a participant.

My life as an ADFPian was quite simple and ordinary.

My foundation results were quite bad compared to other ADFPians.

Hopefully, i can score well throughout my degree years.

UIUC

Michigan

Lehigh

Purdue

Wisconsin

UCLA

Minnesota

Virginia Tech

Those are the schools that i might apply.

My first choice is UIUC!

Hopefully, with my not that excellent results i will be admitted to that prestigious school.

With my SAT 1 and SAT 2 so-so results, i hope that UIUC will accept my application.

I will try my best in my coming TOEFL.

Go, Siew La... You can do it!!!

My major will be mechanical engineering.

I chose this major because of major factors.

First, it is quite general compared to other engineering courses.

Second, it involves less chemistry knowledge. (I'm quite "noob" in Chemistry related subjects.)

Third, it uses lots of physics knowledge. (I'm better in physics compared to in chemistry)

Forth, i can minor in Nanotechnology through this major.

Etc...

Okay, those are enough for my post about ADFP.

I will try my very best to score well throughout my degree years.

Landover always in my memory!

2009-06-28T21:59:00.000+08:00

I’m Too Free….

Bored to death

Landover Photo Album

Facebook

Demo Speech

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=2023972&id=1268576366

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=2024127&id=1268576366

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=2024129&id=1268576366

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=70120&id=1414578685&op=12

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=70122&id=1414578685&op=12

Festival Presentation

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=2022864&id=1268576366&op=6

Trip with Mr.Kamal

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=2022861&id=1268576366

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=228488&id=797485359

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=70104&id=1414578685&op=12

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=70014&id=1414578685&op=12

Miss Raihana

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?page=2&aid=228484&id=797485359

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=67693&id=629353365

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=69250&id=1414578685&op=18

In Chemistry Lab

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=65166&id=633962903&op=6

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?page=1&aid=228484&id=797485359

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=70119&id=1414578685&op=12

Restaurant City… Thank you!!!

2009-06-24T20:58:00.000+08:00

Thank you!!! Try to do calculus!!!

Someone, please help me!

2009-06-21T03:25:00.000+08:00

I am addicted to Restaurant City!!!

Someone, please borrow my broadband for 1 week.

Ask for it...

I will lend you my Celcom broadband...

Please...

I have 2 quiz, 1 test, 1 speech next week!

So, i have to concentrate on my study!

Last post forever...

2009-06-20T05:42:00.000+08:00

Today, i decided to stop blogging and concentrate on study.

I will blog again after my calculus test 3.

I got a summon again yesterday.

The guard jotted down my name as i came back late to akasia.

Hopefully, it won't affect my university application.

Really hope so..

Got to go..

The next very first post, i will talk about a very short and brief summary about my future university. (it's just a dream)!

Stay tune!

/\ Who /\ Who /\ Who /\

2009-06-20T00:48:00.000+08:00

Why am i so lazy?

"It's not me."

"Who is controlling my life now?"

"Am i the person-in-charge of myself?"

I fail to keep my own promise.

I'm still online.

I'm still online!

I hope someone want to borrow my laptop for 1 week.

I hope someone can control me.

I hope someone to guide me.

It is always a hope!