Wednesday, November 25, 2009

7 essays 0 done

The Wisconsin's deadline is approaching but i haven't settled my essays. I have done other parts of the application.
Done with everything except my essays.

Why writing isn't as easy as blogging?

Time to ponder.

My aim for last semester was achieved. However, i am more worry about my next semester performance. There are literature and technical writing. These two courses might kill my CGPA. I want to maintain my gcpa above 3.5.

These few days, i keep thinking what to write for my essays, but the answer was a blank.

I went blank.

My life experiences aren't enough to enrich the community of the college.

My life experiences aren't specific as other applicants.

Undeniably, i became more worry about my essay because i have read my roommate's essay to wisconsin. It was superb. Perfect!

It might take years for me to produce such high quality essays.

I will start working on my essays again tomorrow after my mood is getting better.

Thursday, November 19, 2009

A short Summary of 2009 (January till October)

January-April--Spring Semester 
-I have had a great semester with my fellow Landoverians
-I learned more about myself.
-Class trips made me realized a lot of things that i hadn't done before.
-Visit national library for the very first time.
-Learned about how to edit movie.
-Learned more about group works
-outings with friends.
-SAT for SAT 2 and received an ordinary results.(Jan/Feb)
-Subscribe celcom broadband (Jan-CNY)
-Confession about calculus test was easy (consequence-i didn't score well for calculus 1 final grade)
-Received the first C in INTEC( fortunately, it was just mid-term grade)
-Had had my first flight (end of the semester break)
-Joined tkd tournament (poomsae)
-had joined american indulgence weeks (forced myself to join for aap's marks)
-Ko-pln with madam eliza.
-Drama-ing with my ko-pln group members.

May-July--Summer Semester 
-Took Calculus 2 with 3 lecturers-Mr.Ikhwan, Ms.Farah and Mr.Vincent
-Went swimming pool once.
-Outings with friends.
-Relay for life'09
-Charity Sale in Shah Alam Buddhist Building


July-Oct-- Fall Semester
-joined inpro and saf for chess
-joined concerto's team
-had the most 1 week holiday in one semester-due to H1N1
-Academic decline especially calculus.
-had 10 days trip to Kuching (during the mid-term break)
-had taken my toefl for the first time.
-had my first experience in the karaoke room
-outings with my friends.
-had mid-autumn festival celebration with the gangs
-the end of this semester.




Basically, that's how i spent my three semester. It seems ordinary this year as i said before this year i didn't join lots of activities like last year.


This year i have spent a lot of money and i did have a lot of outings with my friends.


In short, this year i seems to have done lots of non-beneficial things. 


We have helped a lot of people celebrating their birthdays although i didn't like to celebrate birthday. 


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Wednesday, November 18, 2009

oRdINaRy LiFe

I am an ordinary village girl. I grew up in a small village town, Temangan. I finished my preschool education at SRJK (C) Chung Hwa, Kelantan with an ordinary results. I spent my childhood mostly with my neighbors' children, they are about my ages but none of them are same age as me. Some are older than me while some are younger than me. The gap is about one to four years only. Now, most of them have their own lives and same of them have even married. We rarely contact with each other as we are having our own life.

After that, my family consists of my parents and my twin brother moved to Tanah Merah, 15 minutes away from my previous house, my grandma's house. I took my primary education at SRJK (C) Yuk Cheng. I was enrolled into M class while my brother was enrolled into K class. However, my parents appealed so that we were enrolled into the same class. Their appeal succeeded. Both of us were enrolled into M class. As first 2 year of primary didn't according to the abilities of the students, we were in the same class for 2 years. I didn't socialize well with my friends. Most of them had known each other before enrolling into the primary education because they were in the same class during preschool education.

Year 3 onward, i was in the first class which was S for Setia. However, i had always been nominated as the last scorer of the class. My classmates laughed at me. I felt ashamed. I didn't score well for every single subjects except for mathematics. I didn't go for tuition. Most of my classmates did because they are rich. My family couldn't afford the tuition fees that time. My parents taught us Malay language during the night. However, this activities was fading away. Year 1 to year 2, my brother and I was in nursery center as both of our parents were working. Year 3 onward, we stayed at home alone. Year 5 onward, we went to school by ourselves. I cycled to school. I didn't befriend a lot of people. I was an anti-social person. During primary school, i started to socialize when i was in year 5. Although it was a starting point, i am glad our friendship remains until today.

During primary education, i joined ping pong and chess. Besides, i was quite active for track and field. Although i always lost, i learned a lot about friendships. Most of my classmates are rich, they have a good background and i was the only one who can't socialize well with them. Thus, i befriend with other classes students. I realized that i was same as them, i shouldn't be enrolled into the first class. It made my life miserable. My misconception towards my classmates made our relationship worse. They didn't care about existence and i didn't care about their presence.

Year 6, we all were facing UPSR. Although i was in the first class, the teachers didn't put high target on me. They target me to score 1A6B. I managed to score 3A3B1C. That results was considered okay for me during that time as i was just an ordinary student.. As conclusion, my primary education was dull and ordinary. I didn't have much achievements except for scoring 100 for my mathematics which was quite ordinary nowadays.

Year 2003, i enrolled into Form 1. With my ordinary results, i was enrolled into the fifth class out of 13 classes. I was in another school named SMK Dato Mahmud Paduka Raja (1). Form 1, i was still alone. I was sitting at the back as i couldn't manage to get a place in front. I guess before i was mad with my neighbor which made us separated our table. However, my relationship with others were getting better. Some felt pity for the unfair treatment by my classmates. I was not sure how i survive in form 1, i knew i managed to be number 1 in the class, however, this made my classmates hated me more. Form 1 was really a remarkable and an embarrassing episode of my life. This time i started to go for tuition. Although it's much as others did, i thought it was enough. I started to have friends. However, whether they were true friends or not, that's out of my prediction.

Year 2004, i was in form 2, I began to befriend other but still i was unbearable with my brother attitude, he started to skip classes, play truant, and even fought with other students. I was called to meet the counselor to settle my twin brother's things. The story never ended like that, i had to call parents and explain everything to them which sometimes i wished i could go back to class and continue the lecture. My form 2 life was a quite challenging life as i had to start settling my brother misconducts and settling my academic stuff. My results was jumped from 3A in form 1 to 5A in form 2.

Year 2005, PMR year, this year i still had to settle my brother stuff in addition to my academic stuff. I was focusing more on my studies and i managed to score 7A throughout the year. I did join clubs and societies but i was just an inactive member as most of my friends did. I am proud to be part of SPN1 family as most of us score 7A, for the chinese students. Thanks. Although there were quarrels amongst throughout those three years, there are none except strengthen our friendships. Besides, my friendship with other classes students were getting better except with those in the first class. Yeah, i did want to score better than them. However, my friendship with the Malays were good although some of them were in the first class.

After PMR, i was working in the sundry shop together with my friends. I was working as a cashier. I think about 1.5 months. The experience i gained was worth.

Maybe my attitude and my behavior towards studies let people think that i was dominating. With my excellent results (for my school, 7 A in PMR is excellent enough), i managed to enter the first class of science stream. Starting year 2006, i started to socialize more. Initially, i had mind to change to accounting stream but the teachers didn't allow met to do so. At last, i just took extra subject for my spm. At first, i was almost given up my chinese language. However,  i am glad i didn't do so because i managed to score A2 for it. Form 4 and form 5 were the most exciting years for me during my secondary education. Although there were some quarrels, i still think that it was a remarkable quarrel. Form 4, i didn't really study much but others said i did. I started to socialize and thanks to my friends for letting me to become part of the family of chinese language society. I learned about organization and i learned how it worked. Besides, we conducted camps and activities.

Moreover, i started to prove myself by writing essay in bm and managed to win a prize for it. I joined ping pong which i won without competitors. I joined taekwondo which i almost gave up. I joined chess until state level.  I joined quizzes by representing schools. Although i didn't have much achievements like others did, i am proud with myself. There were a lot of things happened during my high school year. There were many "first" things i did like drinking liquors which didn't taste nice at all, gambling which i didn't get addicted, countdown party which i learned about cooking, mentoring my friends which i thought it was useless, camping with friends which created memories, etc.

During the holiday after form 4, i stayed a week at Buddhist temple or  "WAT" with my friends. I learned more about Buddhism.

My life during form 4 and form 5 were more colorful.

After finishing SPM, my life started to change dramatically.

I have blogged after my life after SPM and thus i won't want to blog about it again.

My friends coverage area is getting smaller and smaller. My friends who are still contacting me are decreasing. To those who are still keeping in touch with me, thanks a lot. I hope i won't forget you all forever. Thanks, friends.

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

I'm sorry!


As i expected, i didn't score well.
However, i still want to say thank you to those have never ever given up on me although i was almost giving up during last semester.

Physics 1,
I don't want to elaborate more as i have elaborated it in my previous post.

"The highest prediction for the final Grade: A+
I just say it...
But i just aim A as i have no time to study it...
Hopefully, i won't screw it up..
Wish me luck!
I score almost full mark for all my tests and quizzes, so i didn't worry about my final that much...
Well, it isn't me alone who is scoring almost full mark for all tests and quizzes, there are a quite of number of students who managed to score so for physics. Thus, please don't assume that i'm an expert in physics. I damn noob in physics.."

I failed to get A+ as i didn't do well during my final.
Thanks for giving me A, Ms. Raebah Adam.

CALCULUS III
I really predicted A- for it as i knew it's kind of impossible for me to score A as i screwed up my first 3 tests out of 4 tests. Thanks, Madam Ruzela.

Introduction to Civilization
Well, for this subject, i knew i screwed up my final paper as i really dunno what i had studied. I simply wrote out the points. Thanks God, I still managed to score B+ although i was unhappy with my results.

Chemistry 2
As i expected, i would never ever score well for Chemistry. However, i feel grateful with my chemistry 2 results.

Maybe for others my results are not that excellent as that semester was the must-score semester like some of them manage to score 4-flat.
It will always be a dream of me.

I feel grateful for what i got.


I'm sorry was said to my beloved parents. My mum was here just now and she was shocked with my calculus 3 results. She said "Your math is your strength, your outstanding ability, why you didn't score A for it?" i gave her a lot of accuses like i screwed up my first 3 tests, i managed to score A-, it was good already. Accuses are always accuses. In reality, i didn't work hard. My mum knew that. For my chemistry, she didn't say much as she knew i would say my chemistry was always like that. For physics, she was shocked, i told her my physics was always like that. Thanks god, she didn't say "perasan diri".

That's my mum. She always try her best to understand my academic stuffs but most of the time, i made her confused. That's my intention. I don't want them to worry too much about me.

Looking for for the new semester although i am going to hate that semester.


2nd INTEC CLOSED & INVITATIONAL TAEKWONDO CHAMPIONSHIP

Initially, this tournament is planned to be conducted in January 2010. However, due to the dates selected are the same as another college tournament. It is postponed to March 2010. Exact dates haven't been selected. I am just a small committee number of this tournament, thus i didn't know what is happening actually.

My job is as a "designer" of this tournament. I haven't started to do my job. I will do to finish it before the new semester.

I can't promise my team to get the volunteers in March 2010 as i knew ADFP and ACTP are busy during that period.

To whomever might be interested:

If you were willing to be part of the "Family" of this tournament, please inform me as soon as possible. We need at least 50 volunteers from all programs in INTEC.

As volunteers, you will be given free T-shirts, certificate and food.

I just received sms from Faris, he asked me to do the following design:
1) T-shirt
2) Banner
3) Medal
4) ETC

I will try to master Photoshop and i hope i really can finish it before new semester starts. I don't want to affect my studies.

To those are really interested to become the volunteers, please ask me for the further details. I really hope you guys can join it. Thanks.

Happy Holidays.


Saturday, November 14, 2009

TOEFL

TOEFL is haunting me now.
I haven't started practising it.
I don't know when and where to start.

First attempt, i just scored 79/120. I won't feel ashame for admitting my score. It was a terrible score for USA bound scholars including myself. Although PSD didn't set any requirement regarding toefl, i still have to score higher than 79.

I am applying to Wisconsin Madison which its toefl requirement is above 100 for engineering students.

I am applying to Purdue which its toefl requiremnt is above 88 for engineering students.

I am applying to Stevens which its toefl requirement is above 79.

Ohio State and Maryland are the Universities which i hope i get but i am no need to go there.

I want to go to Wisconsin or Purdue or Stevens.

Either one is good enough for me.

For others, above three uni are their safe schools. For me, they aren't because my toefl keep playing with me.

TOEFL, let me pass 100 this coming saturday. i am begging you. Please...

It's kinda of impossible to score higher if i kept doing nothing.

I have a big communication problem.

Communication skill is the skill i am searching for right now. I know it's hard to master this skill. I need it. I admire who can talk spontaneously in english without any doubts and stops.

FULL STOP

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

My universities Admission Essays

Admission Essays:

  1. University of Wisconsin-Madison
    1. The University of Wisconsin values an educational environment that provides all members of the campus community with opportunities to grow and develop intellectually, personally, culturally, and socially. In order to give us a more complete picture of you as an individual, please tell us about the particular life experiences, perspectives, talents, commitments and/or interests you will bring to our campus. In other words, how will your presence enrich our community?
    2. If there is additional information you would like us to consider in reviewing your application, please share this with us as well. This is your opportunity to tell us things about yourself that have not been asked elsewhere if you believe they will help us become acquainted with you in ways different from courses, grades, and test scores.
  2. Purdue University

    (Either one)

    1. Describe how your college education will allow you to achieve your personal or professional goals.
    2. What is the best advice you have ever received? Describe how it has helped you and how you have used it.
    3. If you had a second chance -- the opportunity to do something over and do it differently -- what would you choose to do over and what changes would you make?

    (Optional)

    1. Additional information (If necessary, use this space to provide additional detail about your background or academic criteria -- information the Admissions Committee may find helpful during the review of your application.)
  3. Ohio State
    1. Why are you considering The Ohio State University?
  4. Stevens Institute of Technology
    1. Personal Statement -Tell more about yourself. For example, a talent, fact, experience or thought that is not on the application.
  5. University of Maryland
    1. An essay describing your past academic experiences and your reasons for wishing to transfer to Maryland at this point in your academic career is required. Students who have been out of school for several years, or who have a personal circumstance that affected their academic performance, may wish to address that situation in their essay. Your essay should be no more than 300 words.


 


 

Saturday, November 7, 2009

Time to update about my current ordinary life...

Fall 2008
Spring 2009
Summer 2009
Fall 2009

4 semesters have gone..
2 more semesters to go..

This year i did nothing beneficially..
Thus, i can't really write a short summary of the year.
I can't really remember when i did things.
I knew that i have had my first flight this year.
So what? Times come and go... It is just a matter of time.
This year is the year of nothing except for "academic failure".
This year i seems to be lazier and lazier.
Too much things i have to ponder about.
Now, i realise that i didn't have to worry about them actually. They were wasting my time. Yeah, they did.
Time can't be reversed.
What i can do now is keep moving.

This year i would like to write down list to do for 2010. Year of possibilities. Not today but at the end of the year. Less than 2 months, 2010 will come to reality.

Next year, i will have a new personalities. I always say that but it never happen. I really hope this will be real soon.

University application is my concern now.

However, toefl comes first in the list of my concern...

I haven't started anything beneficial since i am back to kelantan. I just watched prison break, facebooked, msned, etc.

It's time to start TOEFL. It's time to say goodbye to the visual world.

It's time to move on.

Oh ya. The flood will hit my neighborhood soon. I hope it won't happen. I hate flood. It brings a lot of inconveniences. Besides, i want to sit for my toefl this coming 21 November.

Sunday, November 1, 2009

1st November

1. Purdue University
University of Wisconsin-Madison
2. Stevens Institute of Technology
3. Ohio State University
4. University of Maryland

Above are the universities that i am going to apply.
The list is finalized. No more changes are allowed.